Morning all - been super busy with work this week so just catching up on all your news. Congrats to those doing well, and strength to those who are struggling. We really do cover the whole rich tapestry of life and female (mainly) experience on this thread don't we? So many different people, different challenges, but all of us united as well. This is easily the nicest place I've ever been on the internet, so thank you @TheBroonOneAndTheWhiteOne for keeping us chugging along, and to all of you for sharing so honestly, movingly and often amusingly as well.
So, recap: I had a break from MJ to restart, as it had stopped working - no suppression, constant food noise. I was supposed to jab Sat before last but it ended up being the Monday (I'd forgotten an old friend was coming who I hadn't seen for years). I used to get a very quick reaction, so I was disappointed and fearful when I felt no different - but the day after, it kicked in. I'd restarted on 2.5, and oh my goodness, the relief - being able to go a whole day just eating healthily, when I'm hungry. No binging, no mental battles, no more pouring all my energy into not giving in to those urges. Weight loss aside it's a huge pressure lifted - I feel like my mind is free again. That's the biggest win for me.
Mine has been a very strange journey. I started end of March 25, and between then and the end of Feb this year went from 307lb to 234lbs. Just checked my records and I'd been struggling since Christmas, but by end of Feb I was binging, out of countrol, gaining, feeling dreadful in every possible way. I think the mistake I made, with hindsight, was not doing what I've now done and taking a break. I persevered, kept on with the 15mg, even though it was having literally zero effect. Everybody reacts very differently to MJ, this we all know, and for me, it simply disappeared. It wasn't a normal plateau - there was absolutely no effect on me, I was eating exactly like I was in the very worst of my pre-MJ days. I share all of this in case it's useful to anybody else - the 5 week break has definitely worked, and re-set me. I've done a lot of damage since Feb, in terms of weight gain, but I'm trying not to be too upset about that - being upset will not help, there is nothing I can do but look to the future.
Thanks very much for all your support and advice along the way! I have no doubt I will face more challenges, and obviously the MJ might stop working again for me - but next time I won't mess around, I'll just come straight off it again. I always knew this would be a long term project, but I didn't realise quite how many twists and turns it would involve! I'm going to list my weigh in results in a way that reflects some of that, in the hopes it reminds me that even though I've taken a lot of steps backwards, I did NOT end up as big as I was, so there is still a positive result!
Old SW: 307
New SW: 272
CW: 261