Morning all! Just checking in, even though I really don't want to...I have been reading all your posts, but I've been dreading doing my own. Feel a bit like the ghost at the feast, being negative when most of you are doing so well. So, weighed in this morning, and I was 264lbs. March 1 I was 234lbs. So I've gained over two stone since then. I was on 15mg up until March 23, when after discussing it here decided to take a break and restart. Looking at my records, the gain has been a fairly even split - half of it while I was on the 15mg, half since. So that's all a bit confusing - I felt that the MJ had simply stopped working and it looks like I was right. Anyhow. Here I am, feeling a bit broken to be honest. I have taken one positive step this morning and poured most of a bottle of Baileys down the sink - just too tempting! Lot of stuff going on in my life that is making me sad/anxious, and I'm not sure if I'm eating more because of that, or if the eating more is contributing to the sadness and anxiety...probably some delightful mix of both! I just wish I could go back to feeling the way I did for the first four months or so of MJ, in control and hopeful. Instead of out of control and tearful.
Right, I've done it - admitted all, kept myself accountable - made myself face the gain, which is important even if it's unpleasant. Still loving reading all of your posts, keep up the good work losers!
Quick question for those of you who use apps about this stuff etc - how long roughly do we think it takes for MJ to be out of your system? My last dose was March 23, I'd planned to have a month off so need to start thinking about a date, and whether a month will be long enough to kick start its effect. Also - no wrong answers to this, just looking for some views - what dose do you think I should start off again at? I have loads of MJ in the fridge so that's not an issue.