A bit of a rant incoming , apologies in advance but need to vent
done 4 weeks on 15mg and lost 5lb , amazing it’s working again and finally feel I can get to goal 1-1.5st away
you might remember but the reason I stopped first time was due sudden loss of FIL , being abroad last minute flight tickets and expencws etc . This was midst saving our deposit for buying house
fast forward I’m on the same position again , we have had deposit saved and been waiting for a new development which is being released any day .
my DH is T2 diabetic and got really bad diabetic retinopathy (eye condition which can make you blind) to the point he has been waiting for urgent surgery (2 month waiting time) for 1 year , he even had a pre op in November . Long story short he got symptoms in his second eye 2 weeks ago which more or less makes him almost blind and NHS couldn’t make it fast forward (despite him signed off due to vision loss) so we as a family decided he goes to his originating country and does it there . Great timing he left 2 days after kids finished school for summer !!!!!
he is finally having surgery day after tomorrow and may be home 2-3 weeks for now . But he is self employed meaning no income while he is off plus flights , surgery etc it’s a lot of expense
after a week at home without DH and adjusting work (including splitting my leave to work part time next few weeks, TG work is understanding) I’m adjusting (im 90% work from home so that helps)
im touching the saving founds to fund next pen , not that the house plan is in jeopardy but OMG it’s expensive keeping kids entertained without a holiday on schedule (managed to cancel as we were going Dubai) and their dad being away! i really hope not ,but there may be a need to a pause for a few weeks which is super annoying when I’m on 15mg , I don’t want ruin the momentum !
May be I’m selfish or may be I’m overthinking but I just can’t I’m here again from what I feel was the exact reason I stopped first time and don’t want to get in that space again!!! I don’t regret sending him to save his vision but just feel deflated , I’m telling myself it’s ok and everything will be ok.