January 2025 starters - it's our anniversary!

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@Thelittlestranger that’s it exactly. I know I’m not eating enough to be healthy and when my suppression gets too high I eat what I fancy. And whilst this is sometimes good (my biggest craving on mj is fruit salad) it meant yesterday I ate 2 babybels, a piece of toast, a latte and a fruit salad. So from a fuelling pov it’s not ok every day.

Also I still have a tendency to get a bit ‘raised in the 90s’ disordered - obviously that was a skinny latte and babybel light ;). So I find myself mentally praising myself for being able to eat that little. That’s not a massive problem - I catch myself doing it and give myself a metaphorical slap. But it’s not something to ignore either.

When I was on 7.5, I’d eat 3 good meals and a small pudding (yoghurt or a small bit of chocolate), get my 5 a day, eat my protein etc. I was bigger so I’d lose weight on more calories. It feels a bit like I am chasing the number so pushing myself a bit too hard to get there. Does that make sense?

It does make sense, and I totally empathise. My brain is still disordered about eating and I recognise those feelings completely. You need to do what works for you.

Going in to the office this afternoon, briefly, think it will be the last time I'm there! Strange feeling. But I am enjoying my more relaxed mornings.

we have spent so long trying to lose weight, it is really difficult not to congratulate ourselves for eating as little as possible.

@myladyjane I am with you on those issues. I’m in mourning for those insane levels of suppression from the early days, when all I could manage was soup and a few bites of something. It didn’t feel good but it felt right. Like being able to endure my punishment for being a fat, greedy pig in the past. I don’t think I’ll ever have a comfortable relationship with food and I’m trying really hard to undo all the negativity I’ve piled on myself for at least 40 years. More issues that the non-obese will never understand.

Plasterer has been and finished and the walls are drying nicely so I started the clean up yesterday. From experience it takes weeks for plaster dust to settle though. My new sewing space is getting closer.

DH is off this afternoon so we’re going to drop DS2 at work and have a wander round town, culminating in a visit to our favourite cafe. It’s a little known gem hiding in plain sight in one of the main thoroughfares, most of the menu is gluten free and you can get a two course meal for under £15. One of the few places the tourists haven’t found and we are happy to keep it that way.

More rain due. Think I’m going to dissolve.

Afternoon losers, oh those early days of supression. I remember sitting at the dining table and having such strong nausea on 5mg - those were the days huh?

My 4.8mg of Wegovy just got approved, so I'm hoping it arrives tomorrow (we're away from Saturday through to Tuesday evening). It will be good get some suppression again (even just a little would be good!) as my appetite has really come back. I'm doing well with protein and water, so I'm doing the right things but I think that 2.4mg just doesn't have the effect it once did. I've still got just under a stone to shift (weighed in today and was up nearly half a pound - I was lucky it was so little given my appetite) and now that I'm hovering around 1400 cals per day as opposed to my previous 1200, I need the extra support.

Your afternoon sounds lovely @Jins !

Yeah I miss those early days. It makes me worry that eventually I’ll need to take more just to maintain. Then what if eventually even that is no longer enough.

Worrying is my strongest suit.

What dose are you maintaining on at the moment ?

I’m also worried about maintaining although think I’ve still 7lbs to go.

We must be getting used to eating less, smaller portions, not raiding the fridge just because the mouth is lonely? Yes the supression is nothing like the first weeks, but my weight is relatively stable in normal circumstances.

Holidays next week so will see how that goes. Definitely gym planned as well.

I’m maintaining on 7.5 but it’s much more difficult than on the way up…

Oh Lordy. You’re doing v well though.
Id be happy to maintain on 7.5.

I had hoped to maintain on 2.5 but 5 is more likely. Shotsy estimates there’s 5.11mg in my system today and I’m going to note how I feel over the next couple of days. I need to order today and I’m going for another 10mg pen as my weight is currently very stable on the current regime. My bank account would like me to drop to 7.5.

Has anyone had a good experience with maintenance with a provider? Pharmulous who I recently switched to want £10 for a maintenance consultation - I think that's a bit cheeky given I don't know what kind of maintenance plans they offer so don't know if it will suit before paying for it.
Voy won't let me switch back, even for maintenance, because my BMI is too low.

I ordered some new Adidas joggers off Vinted, size S. When I opened the package I saw they were size XS and was really pissed off and ready to complain and return.

However, they fit. I’m size XS! But it got me thinking, what do people who are really tiny wear?

I regularly meet women who are much smaller than me, so do they wear children’s clothes?

@Zempy I've been thinking the same, I often need the smallest size or some shops don't even carry sizes that small (many start with EUR 36 which is too big). And I'm slim but tall and by no means tiny.
Now, I have bought some clothes from teen ranges, I have to admit. But mostly of course the teenage styles look a bit odd on an almost 50yo woman.

It’s weird isn’t it? My BMI is 20 so I’m well into the “healthy” range. I never really thought about what smaller or underweight women wear.

My mother is/was teeny tiny. Never weighed over eight stone her adult life, generally around 7:7 and wore a size 10.

That seems very inflexible. I thought Voy prescribed if bmi over 19?

Sorry I’ve been MIA, busy week with lots of potential roles so 🤞🏻.
Thanks so much @BlueLimesthat’s so kind but thankfully Bolt have sent me some, unlike Oushk who said it would be unfair on other customers to send me some 🤷🏻‍♀️so they’re off my list, they also charge for maintenance ( in fact tried to charge me twice!). In answer to your question @MJallthewayI’d recommend Bolt, they’ve been super responsive with amazing service albeit I’m not on an official maintenance plan with them yet.

I’m getting on well with 5mg atm so hoping in time I can move down to 2.5.

Have a great weekend and half term of it applies losers, loving the winter olympics here!

It's incredibly inflexible given I've been with Voy for the best part of a year, cancelled my plan with them less than a month ago and now weigh 1 kg less than I did when I cancelled 🤷🏻‍♀️. Oh well, I'm happy to give my maintenance money to another provider!!

I’m still hoping to switch from Oushk but I’ve left it too late for this month. February is flying by. I’m due to start a new pen on 24th but I need it before we go to York so I’ve rushed through an order and sent photos and id they’ve not even asked for to avoid the hassles I had last time. I did get a lovely email from them confirming they’ve made a note of my dose regime on my record so I feel like giving them another go. I won’t need to buy a pen in March which gives me a breather.

I’ve had a couple of sales on Vinted over the last few days which is unexpected and I’m going to treat myself to something when I get paid. Won’t be enough for anything decent but hopefully there’ll be something for a frivolous spend. Tax code notice arrived and things will ease a bit in April.

I had a 360 health assessment today, mainly good news on bloods and BP but slightly marred by the presence of a small lump during my breast examination. I’m obviously hoping it’s just a benign bit of fatty tissue revealed now that my boobs are empty 32Cs, but really bloody annoying that I’m about to get on a plane tomorrow so can’t get it looked at till after I’m back on Friday.

On the bright side I had a body mass scan with electrodes on feet and hands (so slightly more accurate than the Renpho) and I am 20.6% body fat - which is a huge improvement to the 32% I was measured at last year (and the 28% my Renpho scales currently measure me at).

Glad you are sorted @26inprogress
@MJalltheway thats utterly bizarre - Maybe I need to think of options too. Hope you can easily sort.
@DGmaintaining can you feel the lump, is it mobile? If a hcp examined you and thoight was sinister they’d have said I think. My friend was told she couldn’t go on her holiday planned for an urgent referral. Horrible for you to have on your mind.

Lots of luck with the potential roles @26inprogress
hope all goes ok with your prescription @Jins

chances are it's nothing @DGmaintaining , try not to worry right now. They probably would have said if they thought it was urgent to get it checked. And wow, 20% bodyfat is amazing! Flying somewhere fun?

any interesting options @26inprogress ? Hope no time wasters.

@DGmaintaining please try not to worry. It’s really likely to be a bit of fatty tissue rather than anything sinister. I went through this recently with DD and it’s tough. 💐 I am very jealous of your 20% body fat. I reckon mine is still much higher than that. Despite having a BMI of 20 I can still get handfuls of fat from my tummy, never mind being able to “pinch more than an inch” 🙄

I have quite the stockpile of pens now and I will have to go onto a maintenance plan at some point. I think Oushk do one where you can just pay a regular fee and order random pens? I think that will probably work for me in the short to mid term until me stash runs out. Hopefully there will be more options by then.

Happy Valentines/Galentines Day. I’m going to walk for a walk with a dark handsome fellow (Labrador) then getting my eyebrows done.

Salmon dinner for me and out with friends tomorrow for boozy late lunch.

I have Bodycombat class planned for this morning (taking, not teaching).
I sometimes worry that I look unbearably smug as a participant, always taking the hardest options etc? But well, there are super eager always there front row people in every class. 😁

Holidays on Wednesday so probably should also get some summer clothes out. So fabulous not having to worry about what I can squeeze myself into and what is most flattering and slimming. Naturally slim people have no idea.