January 2025 starters - it's our anniversary!

[HeidiLite]

new thread, losers!

December 24 and December 25 - I look taller when slim,.don't I?

I think you do from that angle, yes @HeidiLite Maybe it’s a matter of body/limb proportions? Both lovely dresses btw and you don’t even look that big to me in the first one!

@HeidiLite you do look taller! How weird is that? And I agree, the Dec 2024 pic is not a ‘big’ pic.

@jins I have the maddest, most detailed dreams all the time. They are exhausting. I have what I describe as ‘theatre sets’ in my head that the action takes place in. They are version of real places, friends houses etc etc. How weird is that? Why does my brain feel the need to create an artistic impression of somewhere that I know well? And the most common theme is packing - either to move house or to get a flight - and I can’t get it all done in time. Properly stressful.

I did post earlier today but the site was playing up and it seems the post failed.

You really do look taller @HeidiLite! and pretty slim in the first photo too.
My DM is 5'3" and I see her as tiny 😂 I'm 5'10" which is helpful when putting weight on because there's a lot of me to distribute it around.

I'm slightly aphantasic so I don't have any mental images unless I really concentrate hard on something. I very rarely have dreams, I'm quite glad, it seems exhausting having to do loads of stuff in your sleep!

I agree it's not a 'big pic' - I actually sent it to a friend to show her how good I looked and how well the industrial strength shapewear is working. I put on several kilos over xmas holidays and in January before I started and certainly looked big on the photos I sent to the prescriber. I'm 5'6 so quite average really.

Morning. Checking in.
So pleased to hear your appointment went well @tinyemmy, you sound very positive.

@dgmaintainingI hope yesterdays appointment was ok and that ds urinary infection clearing.

@Polkadotdashhow are you?

@HeidiLiteagree with others, you don’t look big in the first photo and def taller in the 2nd! Hope DS feeling a bit better.

@Thelittlestrangeramazing work on maintaining, all that exercise! Hope you’re having a nice relaxing week.

@Aimingforearlierbedtimeshope you had a great time away!

@MJallthewayreally hope your back gets better soon, amazing work maintaining! Have a great spa break.

I’m finding eating well much easier being back at work, no breakfast, healthy lunch, no snacking. V little exercise though, but keeping up with my 2 reformer classes so that’s something and hoping to increase back to 3 when I can. It’s definitely changing my body shape. Work is bonkers, I hate being new and not knowing what I’m doing or any of the people but I’ll get used to it! I’m back to 10 9 which is within my zone, I think that’s anything from 10 6 to 10 11.

@DGmaintaining hope was ok?

my dreams on hrt are off the charts. Really intense which is fine if they are sex dreams (not had those for a while) but less so when they’re nightmares. Normal dreams are quite entertaining though and I am enjoying them as for me it’s a sign of good sleep quality. Dh doesn’t recall his dreams at all so he thinks I’m bizarre.

@MJalltheway my dd is 5ft 9 so she thinks I’m a dinky little toy and likes to rest her chin on the top of my head.

I am a bit proud of myself I think. Am maintaining weight wise which is fine although my food consumption is still fairly low - i am not quite ready to properly maintain yet (would like to get down a couple more lbs) but I think I need to do some reverse dieting when I am because ideally I’d like to get to 1500 as average daily maintenance calories - for age and height and activity that’s about all I’ll get but actually seems a reasonable amount of good food. I’m closer to 1200 atm so a bit worried that I am maintaining on that iyswim. Needs to be tested

exercise is mostly going well - did loads of steps and walking on the weekend which made my bad knee flare so I skipped the gym on Monday and yesterday to give it a good rest. Did a gentle jog this morning - it was a bit hurty so I stopped, walked then did a little bit which seemed ok. So gently does it - will head to gym on Friday to do waist up if nothing else…..

Morning all! Lots of positives at the moment.

No dreams to report from last night but I don’t get them often nowadays as my insomnia meds tend to put me into deeper sleep. I’m sure the evening sertraline was to blame so in future I’ll skip it if I forget to take it in the morning.

Had the most amazing Hello Fresh meal last night. Rump steak with garlic mash, broccoli and asparagus. My inner chef emerged with the peppercorn sauce which I laced heavily with brandy. My sort of mid week dinner 🤣. I’m on soup making duty again as my veg box is here.

If you want mental dreams, get on statins. My dreams are totally bizarre.

@26inprogress what's your first impression, reasonably decent place to work?

Oh good god the fact that HRT and statins can give you mental dreams makes me never ever want to take them. I also get night terrors too, linked to sleep apnoea. Those are horrible. Like I’m dying. Often with terrifying phantoms in the room. The child with the black tears that appears at the side of the bed is very unwelcome! @Jins i can’t take my sertraline after lunchtime otherwise my sleep is screwed up. So you’re probable on to something. And my DH doesn’t have dreams either. Totally envy him. They are exhausting.

Other than that, this week continues to be a shit show. I did go in to work on Monday and do the presentation and it was awful. But there is no time to reflect, on we push to the next set of totally unrealistic deadlines, writing the next set of papers, based on nothing but needing to be totally robust and defensible. I have put the application in for the other job, but I’m not sure I’m in any state to be going for anything other than some sort of asylum at this rate.

weight up a pound (I’m living on chocolate). 7.5mg jab ready to start at weekend.

Really good! Great benefits, fantastic office, growing business and cash rich in an interesting sector, going to be super super busy but it’s all great stuff with amazing opportunities so so far so good!! Thanks for asking 😃

Appointment went well. MRI and mammogram came back normal, so consultant isn’t concerned. He did another ultrasound and last week’s cyst hadn’t gone down as much as he expected so he drained it again! This time he sent the contents off for testing and he’ll just call me with the results. Other than that he’s happy to just set me up with annual mammograms until I get confirmation one way or the other on the BRCA gene. So I think for now that’s the all clear. I must admit I did do a quick check over the weekend on whether my DH would inherit my pension.

I’m an intense dreamer, always have been, and will remember the dream when I wake up. Sometimes it’s exhausting, I’ll wake up in the middle of a nightmare and have to talk myself down from whatever situation my brain has cooked up. I actually prefer the ‘being chased by a murderer’ anxiety dream over the ‘work has gone horribly wrong’ anxiety dream. I’ve had a lot of dreams recently where the DC are much younger. These have replaced the dreams where I find myself back at a job I did in my 20s.

@myladyjane the reverse dieting is strange when you start, but go really slowly and trust the process!

@26inprogress sounds fantastic, what a great time to have joined the company.

@Polkadotdash well done for applying for the other job, I can imagine how hard that must be with everything going on but you’ve sent a message.

@Jins I love a steak dinner! We made a great one last Friday with a coriander based salsa verde, so so good.

Morning all

Glad the job is going well @26inprogress you sound excited about it!

@DGmaintaining sounds like they are looking after you

@myladyjane good plan for the gym. It's so annoying when your body hurts, but you have to work round it.

I'm off to London today for drinks with ex colleagues and to meet a recruiter. I'm looking forward to it. Sauna and dip tomorrow night, and then OH is off for the holidays as of tomorrow so he'll be in the house for 3 weeks. It will be nice to not have to drag myself to work while he is off for a change.

Run this morning, and a bit of pilates beforehand I think.to fire my glutes up. Enjoy your days all.

Good morning losers.

My maintenance call with Oushk went well. She was very cagey about me titrating down using existing 15mg pens using clicks. She said they can’t endorse that but she seemed to accept that this is what I will be doing!

Anyway, I don’t have to order until June, and I will allegedly be able to order a 7.5 or 10mg pen then.

I told her about my stash and offered to show her but she accepted it. She said she would note my record but I bet I still have problems ordering in June! No issues with my BMI. She said they will prescribe for maintenance down to 19.5

They noted my record too @Zempy. Made no difference tbh and I had hassle every order since. There are increasing posts on SM about Oushk’s approach to perceived gaps so you’re right to bet you’ll have problems in June. Having a BMI below 21 is a bit limiting for a switch so I’ll keep everything crossed for you. I’m still debating what to do about Oushk now that I’ve switched.

What a day of weather yesterday as my Nan would have said. Stupidly I filled my car with waste polystyrene to take to the tip even though I knew it was likely to be closed due to the wind and I’ve been driving round with polystyrene squeaking away behind me since. That’s now today’s job. I’ve got a big pile for the charity shop as well.

I’ve noticed a very subtle change in my approach to clothes. I’ve shifted from does it fit to does it flatter. I think I’m going to end up binning everything and starting again. I’m living in leggings at the moment where I used to live in baggy floaty festival trousers. I’m chasing the perfect fit in T-shirts FFS. I’ve even worn belts to emphasise my ‘waist’. Is this a sign that my brain has come to accept my new weight?

@jins that’s a nice shift. I’ve also been getting rid of clothes that aren’t particularly great on me but do fit, realising how desperate some of my clothes buying was before I started this. They also hang differently, as a small person I’m now getting away from some slightly frumpy mid-calf skirt lengths that covered everything but didn’t remotely flatter. I often found petites too tight in the past, even in larger sizes.

Catching up after an awful week.
Impressive news on not gaining whilst skiing @Thelittlestrangertell me what you did!?!
I'm glad the job is going well @26inprogress
I'm a real shortie at 5'1.5! I've been doing really well on the food front this week and kept calories not ridiculous and the scales are finally going in the right direction. I'm annoyed with myself still for not being able to nip it in the bud sooner, but hey ho.
BMI is currently 24.1 and I want to get it back down to 22, 11lbs to go...

Yay for Saturday and I’m due a lovely peaceful one as DS2 is out with friends and DH is off to a gig and pre-gig session with mates so from 3 ish the house is mine. I tried on some of my holiday clothes yesterday and most are now in the recycling bag which is a bit tragic when I consider the hours of work I put into them. I’ve saved two particular favourites for alteration but I’m going to have to make a start on stuff for Turkey in May.

I jabbed a day early yesterday as I woke up feeling like the hungry caterpillar. Weight holding at 8st 8.2 ish which is good.

I’m on another thread at the moment about Oushk’s current approach. It seems there are more than a few unhappy customers around. I think I’ve decided against their flex plan and am debating what treat to spend my Oushk points on.

Checking in, no gain, no loss either but I have been away for three nights golfing with lots of food and a couple of drinks each day. Relieved to weigh in and STS. I think I must be 7 weeks off it this week.

One of the friends I was away with has just started MJ, she’s using Curely, I’d not heard of them but a colleague of hers recommended them. They discussed treatment lasting up to two years on her initial assessment so must provide in maintenance.

I've been reading that thread too @jins, it's quite amazing how poor the service from Oushk seems to have been. I'm with Pharmulous at the moment and you can order at any point up to a year after your last order once you're on maintenance - isn't that just what the Flex plan gives you at Oushk? But for free instead of whatever they charge per month?

weight still stable here, due to jab today so considering dropping down a little bit, been on 7.5 for a month now

weight stable here, had a nice cardio workout in the morning. Rest of the day will be spent ferrying kids around - birthday party, basketball game, sleepover etc. Weather is cold and miserable so the only consolation is that kids chose an indoor competitive sport and not something that would require me to sit outside for an hour or 2 😁I don't know how football parents do it..

Noticed something peculiar with clothes shopping. When I was bigger, I would buy whatever if it was flattering and slimming. Then after the weight loss, I was buying ALL the clothes, as they were all flattering and slimming. But I am kind of getting used to my new shape, it seems it's not the clothes, it's simply being slim. So now I'm getting reallllly picky. Went shopping yesterday, tried on a ton, didn't buy anything. Better for the wallet, for sure. Have you other losers had similar experiences?

Also we need a new thread.

@HeidiLite yes. I had a day off yesterday and took myself off for a try on session. I’ve gone past the ‘it fits’ stage, through the ‘it makes me look slimmer’ phase into the ‘do I really like it/does it make me feel good’ phase. And I’m struggling tbh. I have realised I have a very narrow chest (like the armpit to armpit front bit) and it’s making a lot of tops look weird and ill fitting and I’m getting swamped by a lot of sleeves. I am also still struggling with what ‘my’ style is - you would have thought by 52 I’d have a clue!

oh and that's another challenge, the age and our style evolves with it. I think I look reasonable for my 47 years, but had to give a load of clothes to my younger sister, because they just looked.. too young. Like I was trying to cosplay a teenage girl.

@myladyjane have you tried batwing/dolman sleeves? those should balance a narrow ribcage.