Feel so fed up this morning. Seem to have put on 3lbs this last week :-(
I have had two Christmas parties, but I didn’t think I went over my calories any more than 100 or so on any given day. Infact at one of the parties I only had one glass of Prosecco and a few crisps. The other one I completely ignored the Yule log, cakes, chocolate fountain, mince pies, etc etc. In the 8 hours I was there (which was over dinner time) I had
Two pigs in blankets
3 one inch slices of baguette dipped in cheese fondue
3 new potatoes dipped in cheese fondue
3 glasses of Prosecco
A few crisps
which I thought was really fucking moderate and kinda counted as my dinner.
and it was a big fucking miserable effort, that left me feeling deprived and like i’m on a diet. Which was what I thought taking MJ was meant to avoid.
finding all the Christmas food really triggering and stressful, dreading Christmas Day.
worried I’m either in denial and eating far more than I thought and not recording properly or that my body is just an even bigger bastard than ever .
last night I felt really weak and had three chocolate biscuits and didn’t record them.
feel like giving in.