Apologies, this is going to be a nauseating gratitude post. And apologies also to those who aren't yet where they want to be, I don't want to appear smug.
In addition to the weight loss (18kg, now a healthy BMI) I have had the confidence to buy some nicer clothes - not loads, just enough that I don't look scruffy all the time. I ran into an acquaintance by chance the other day and wasn't embarrassed by my appearance - I think that might be a first! When I go shopping now I'm not just looking for something to cover me, I can choose nice things and not just buy the one thing that doesn't look awful on me. I tried on a pair of jeans recently and thought, 'they're ok but not as nice as the ones I already have so I'm not going to get them, because I can look amazing now!'
My confidence has improved massively: I had a dream about my horrible XH a couple of nights ago - previously I would dream that he was attacking me and I'd wake up in a panic, but this time he was just a bit pathetic and I almost felt sorry for him.
When I started MJ I thought it wouldn't work for me, I would be the exception etc etc. I'm so pleased with how it's gone so far and so grateful to this group for all your support. I couldn't have done it without you. I have a few kg to get to target and I'm going to get on it in the new year. I'm also going to increase my exercise, especially weights, in the new year so I can get strong.
Happy New Year & thank you, losers!