I’m feeling a bit disheartened this morning. I had a great week at my conference and found out I won an award which means a lot to me, so I was cloud nine from that point of view. But there were lots of photos of me as a result and while I’m pleased to be down a stone from when I started 10 weeks ago, I still have a long way to go and looking at the photos was a wake up call that I still look quite big.
It was also another week where I was out of my routine with food - conference and hotel food, lots of drinking, didn’t sleep well, lots of nerves about speaking too. On the plus side, the MJ definitely made it a lot easier for me to rein things in and stay fairly sensible, and I went running for half an hour twice while I was away plus really focused on water. But on the negative side, I haven’t lost any weight again this week and when I compare my total loss of 15lbs over 10 weeks to what other people have managed over the same period then I feel I have really let myself down.
I jabbed the very last bit from my current pen yesterday morning, which was about 0.4ml so slightly under 3.75mg I think (I’ve been on 3.75mg for five weeks). I think I need to go up to 5mg though. 3.75mg is still giving me good suppression for 4/5 days after jabbing so I have mixed feelings about going up - I think if I was just at home and in my routine all the time, it would probably be fine as I’d just have the momentum from good routine to carry me through, and it’s not like I’m ravenous any of the time. But that’s not what I’ve got in front of me, and the next five weekends all have trips away or visitors staying with us so if I stick to 3.75mg I think it’ll be a case of maintaining probably.
I’ve got a weekend away with friends next week though so - yet again - another thing to throw me off course! I don’t feel I can risk stepping the dose up just before that so I may wait until I’m back on Sunday evening and do my first 5mg then. Going to try to have a good weekend too and hope the scales will show at least a very small loss by Monday!!