My first thought is to be grateful that we are pioneers on this thread .....we started MJ in the first couple of months it was available.
Presumably we are by now a good way on our journey, either maintaining or bearing down on target weight. We are very lucky. Even though this is shit , we have achieved or are approaching slim.
Imagine being a few months in, getting that bloody thrill we all got back then that this MAGIC actually worked. I remember everybody's astonishment , wonder and real joy .
Imaging being in that place, a long long way to go but full of hope that this time it might work, you can change your life.
And then Boof! It's snatched away. It's horrible.
I am skinny, very low BMI which I won't share or you will shout at me, but it's the weight I wanted and where I look good. I bloody love being skinny and buying all my teeny tiny Vinted bargains!. Now maintaining, still on 15mg as I am too scared to come down.
Pen wise , I stock piled. I am ok until next spring. Longer if I micro dose. Will be pushing the dates but at this point I don't care.
As much as the weight loss, this drug within the first month turned my hideous swollen autoimmune disease ridden joints into pain free normal joints.
Previously I couldnt expose my balloon knees.
This summer I have lived in shorts. I have brown legs!
I exercise because I am pain free. Yesterday I hiked up a 3000ft mountain at high speed and today am fresh as a daisy with no pain in my legs which used to ache and crack from going up a flight of stairs.
I am pain and inflammation free for the first time in decades. I don't take pain killers or nasty naproxen any more.
None of the strong immunosuppressive drugs I was on got near this success. But that will all be lost and I will be in pain again. NHS won't give me it for autoimmune disease as it's not licenced for that even although it's spectacularly effective at reducing inflammation.
My "not quite needibg medication but a bit worrying due to family history" blood pressure was lowered to very healthy levels from the first jab. Going to see that go up again.
And I suppose my wrist will again start breaking out in seeping welts where ever my watch strap touches. And my ears will do the same when I put earings in. A tiny thing, but I have enjoyed earings again.
So many improvements in my life from small ones to big ones , all to be gone🥺.
We have read so much about the dangers of inappropriate use, we have been lectured........using pens for too long etc. If that is in fact dangerous, it's going to go through the roof. I will certainly be risking it to microdose.
Buying dodgy dangerous knock offs , that's going to go through the roof too because desperate people do desperate things.
Sorry for long post. Just rambling as I am so gutted .