Here's a new side effect of Mounjaro that nobody else is reporting on: ANGER.
I have been using MJ since May, and as a direct result of using it, I am angry.
Very angry. And it's a side effect that does not go away.
I'm angry at the weight loss industry.
I'm angry at being told if I count the points in food and stop at 27 points then I will lose weight.
I'm angry at being told if I ate only green food or only red food then I will lose weight.
I'm angry that I was told to track my calorie intake and my exercise levels to make sure my calorie intake was smaller than the amount of calories I burned.
I'm angry that I was told that if I followed a high fibre diet I would lose weight.
I'm angry that I was told if I did intermittent fasting I would lose weight.
I'm angry that I invested all of my faith in the above but none of them worked.
I'm angry that I paid good money to attend weekly diet club classes for years to be patronised and told by leaders in front of the whole class that I can't have been following the plan correctly otherwise I would have lost weight. I was following the plan correctly. I'm an intelligent woman. I know how to follow instructions. But it didn't work for me. I didn't lose weight whilst diligently following those instructions.
I'm angry that I have spent 2 decades of my life weighing and charting and diarising every single solitary thing that I eat, and stopping at a level that would create a calorie deficit, yet it didn't work and I didn't lose weight.
I'm angry that exercising every day, like I was told to, didn't make me lose weight. It cost me a fortune in David Lloyd membership over the years. But it didn't make me lose weight like my gym trainer told me it would.
I'm angry that doctors have told me to stop eating convenience foods and to start cooking healthy foods from scratch, when I have never eaten convenience foods and have spent all my life cooking healthy foods from scratch.
I'm angry that when I was a child at school, all my friends got sent in to school with a packed lunch of white rolls filled with processed ham and mayonnaise, chocolate bars and crisps with a can of fizzy drink. Every day. And all of them were skinny. Whereas I got sent in with a packed lunch of wholegrain bread filled with marmite and alfalfa sprouts that my mum used to buy from the local health food shop, a piece of fruit, some cucumber, and a bottle of water. Every day. And I was fat. Very fat. Yet my mother never, ever fed me confectionery, processed foods, convenience foods, puddings, fizzy drinks, sweets, crisps. Never. She fed me as she ate, which was pure, fresh, clean, home cooked foods. The very foods we are taught to eat for a lean body. Yet I was heavily overweight throughout my childhood and teenage years.
I'm angry that nobody worried about me when I stopped eating at 19 because I was so, so desperate to shed this heavy weight I'd been carrying around with me all my life despite being reared on a textbook healthy diet. I could see in the eyes of the adults around me that nobody could understand why or how I was fat when I was given such healthy food to eat and sent to regular sports classes and taken out for hikes every weekend. It didn't make me lose weight.
I'm angry that all through my life, people have said to me "kindly" that if I ate less, I would lose weight. I did eat less. I ate less than every other person I know. I have spent my entire life eating less. It didn't stop me from being fat. It didn't make me lose weight.
I'm angry that being fat has given people the green light to make personal comments about my weight throughout my entire life. Teachers, school friends, uni friends, colleagues, family members, adult friends, in laws. I don't know if these comments were designed to catapult me in to losing weight. They didn't know I'd been dedicating my life to trying to lose weight.
I'm angry that I was told walking 10,000 steps a day would make me lose weight, so I got a pedometer and set out over the downs on a daily basis for a 5 mile walk come rain or shine after an exhausting day at work, and I kept going with it for a year, fuelled by the instructions from others that if I kept doing it I'd lose weight. But it didn't work. I didn't lose any weight.
I'm angry that I have spent a lifetime feeling shame. Feeling guilty. Feeling ugly. Feeling like I look awful. Developing low self esteem and low self confidence in response to the unkind comments about my weight that I grew up receiving. Feeling upset that other people think I eat too much and don't move enough. Feeling demoralised that other people think I need to be educated on healthy eating. About exercise. About TDEE.
I'm angry that, at some point in my life, nobody told me I have a disease. I'm angry nobody told me the disease is called obesity. I'm angry nobody told me that no matter what I do, I will not be able to conquer the symptoms of that disease all by myself through sheer grit and determination. I'm angry that I've had to work this out myself. With no support from anyone, anywhere, including professionals.
And now, here we are. 4 decades into my life and I've been given an injection that is making me lose weight. It's as simple as that. After decades of battling against my own body and believing all the lies I've been sold and ending up feeling a complete and utter failure because I did everything they told me would work yet none of it worked for me, here is 1 quick, simple injection that takes 5 seconds to use once a week and that's it. That's all I have to do. And I'm losing weight. Slowly. Steadily. Consistently. Successfully.
And now I have a new anger.
I'm angry that people are telling me I shouldn't be taking this drug.
I'm angry that this drug is working for me, yet I'm being met with negativity about it.
I'm angry that I'm being told I shouldn't be buying it privately. That I shouldn't be spending this much of my money on it. That it will make me ill. That the side effects are terrible. That I don't know what the long term effects will be.
So watch out people.
WLDs should come with a great big side effect warning: 'Caution. When this drug starts taking effect and you begin losing weight, suddenly everything you've questioned your whole life will start making sense and as a direct result of that you may develop anger'.