And I finally remember to come back and check in with you.
Bony tailbone? Check. I wish I could put one of my old bun pads on it. It certainly feels like it will pierce the skin soon.
Feeling the cold? Check. One bonus of weight loss is I don’t mind layering up now. Before I wouldn’t. It made me look fatter. Now. Nope. Don’t care.
ED? Hmm. Now, I will fully admit I lied on my form. I was diagnosed and treated for bulimia at 21. Two decades back.
I am having to really think very hard on this one. Let me give you an insight to Flappy head. 😂
I always considered myself rubbish at even eating disorders. After all, anorexics manage to starve themselves. Bulimia? Well, I couldn’t even do an ED properly. I was too weak to keep up the will power to starve myself. I binged and then felt bad and purged.
(this is just me!)
MJ makes it very, very easy to not eat at all. I can talk about hitting protein all I like and trying to have minimum calories. But have I really? No.
I have made myself eat healthily, but I certainly cut out anything that wasn’t “clean” for five months. I am reintroducing things. But… I never had balance anyway. If I had I wouldn’t have got to obese category. (Albeit just. I was just over 30).
posting this now in fear I lose it as on phone but I will write more