Is this the end ?

[stophuggingme]

I’m so sad and worried
One of my three beautiful cats has overnight lost the use of her back legs and is dragging them
We are seeing the vet this afternoon
She is almost thirteen
Three months ago her right hind leg was stiff and she was a bit wobbly on it. Bloods were run and didn’t reveal and raised markers she was predicted pain relief and within days was back to her normal self.
The last few days she has been a bit stiff again but was still getting up into the cat tree, using her litter tray and eating and walking fine
Yesterday she just went downhill late at night.

My heart is in my mouth and I’m so sad. She is eating today but I’ve had to help her back into her favourite hiding hole . She’s had water and used the litter tray. She’s let me brush her and cuddle her.
When I call her she responded and is purring occasionally plus her eyes are bright. I’m hoping against hope aren’t I?

I’m terrified this is a saddle thrombus / thrombosis

I’m so worried she will need to be PTS today when I take her.

Does anyone have any happy outcomes for this sort of thing. I’ve had her and her sister since they were 12 weeks old they have been my family before I had one of my own 😢

@stophuggingme - ah, those milestone dates are hard. Hope you are doing ok, and that your other two are doing well. Am conscious of saying “you’ll feel this and then that” as we are all different. All I can say is that I never thought I would feel vaguely ok again - but it has got slightly easier 3 months in, the raw grief has subsided somewhat. Am only saying this as a couple of months ago I was desperate to know that I’d kind of function again.

Thanks @Fluffycloudland77 and @Furries

Her sister has stopped the heartbreaking little cries she has settled down and eating better again. She was over grooming a bit. Had both of them at the vets for their boosters and a weigh in they said she is fine and the over grooming has stopped now.
They are eating and sleeping more together now as well as pottering around the garden and lying with me and the dog on the sofa at night.
When the weather is a bit better we are going to put the painted rocks down and light Dolly a little candle and toast her. My friend painted me a stunning rock which will take pride of place

Thanks for thinking of us

They are quite a pair of characters sat up there

It must be awful if you can feel something but not verbalise it so over grooming makes sense if she’s acting out.

@stophuggingme - am so sorry, for some reason I lost notifications for this thread. Am so pleased that they are spending more time together, and also that the over-grooming has stopped - it’s hard watching them go through something that you can’t talk over with them.

Love the idea of the painted rocks, and how thoughtful of your friend to do one - love true friends like that. Would be lovely to see them in situ when they’re done, but equally realise that it’s a private sentiment so you may not want to.

I’ve planted a rose bush for Simba - it looks a bit lost at the moment, but should mature to around 5ft by 5ft. Around it I’ve placed 4 paw print solar lights - it gives me a little surge of love when I turn everything off for the night to go to bed and look out the window to see them gently glowing.

Take care and hope the weather improves a bit for you soon.

@Furries those solar paw print lights sound great I will have a look for some.
I am still really struggling. The last few days have been vert sad for no particular reason or event. I saw a rescues cat for adoption that reminded me of her a bit and it just set me off.
When the weather is nicer I will take a photo of her sleeping spot with her lovely painted rocks and rose bush. It is a very peaceful place.

I am crying just writing this.
I loved her so much I wish I could have one more day with her.

@stophuggingme - oh, I’m so sorry you’re struggling, but in the greater scheme of things it is still very very early in the process for you. I wish I could offer some sage advice to make it easier, but I can’t. All I can say is let yourself cry (so much healthier than trying to bottle it up) and please don’t put time limits on things.

I’ve had a number of ok days, then knocked back again today, but just remember that people here care.

I posted something earlier and someone suggested it might be nice to have a memorial thread/sticky/subject so that people can post memories and photos in a dedicated subject. I think that’s a lovely idea and hopefully we can get something sorted.

All I can say is that the slight shift from where you are now to me who is about 10 weeks further on, is it will get a little bit better. It will never leave you, and you will have stumbling blocks, but hopefully those cracks in our hearts will start to be filled with loving memories.

Her sleeping spot really does sound beautiful. She was blessed to have been a member of your family

Thank you @Furries for all your lovely words

It has really helped. ❤️

Just saying hello stophuggingme and sending you good wishes. The painted stones and rosebush sound lovely, as do the solar lights like Furries'. I know her sleeping spot is at your mum's but she lit up your life so it might be nice to think she will still be doing this

@nettie434
Yes she did. She really did.
Thank you 💖