Is this the end ?

[stophuggingme]

I’m so sad and worried
One of my three beautiful cats has overnight lost the use of her back legs and is dragging them
We are seeing the vet this afternoon
She is almost thirteen
Three months ago her right hind leg was stiff and she was a bit wobbly on it. Bloods were run and didn’t reveal and raised markers she was predicted pain relief and within days was back to her normal self.
The last few days she has been a bit stiff again but was still getting up into the cat tree, using her litter tray and eating and walking fine
Yesterday she just went downhill late at night.

My heart is in my mouth and I’m so sad. She is eating today but I’ve had to help her back into her favourite hiding hole . She’s had water and used the litter tray. She’s let me brush her and cuddle her.
When I call her she responded and is purring occasionally plus her eyes are bright. I’m hoping against hope aren’t I?

I’m terrified this is a saddle thrombus / thrombosis

I’m so worried she will need to be PTS today when I take her.

Does anyone have any happy outcomes for this sort of thing. I’ve had her and her sister since they were 12 weeks old they have been my family before I had one of my own 😢

I’m a bit surprised they haven’t offered to see her today.

You’ve done everything you can for her. This bit of cat ownership is brutal & cruel for us.

@Fluffy
I can’t get her to the OOH vets today at a time before my youngest would be in bed the earliest they could have seen me is after 7pm as they are dealing with other animals until then and they are not Currently offering the service of putting a cat to sleep at home due to Covid. I’m on my own with three of them so stressful at the best of times and have nobody I can leave them with so a bit stumped really

So I have to take her tomorrow
I’ve given her a bit of water and she is sleeping peacefully now she’s had her morphine and anti inflammatory meds as I’ve managed to feed her a spoon or two of chicken

How’s it going?.

She’s eaten a bit more and had some water
She’s in a big basket and a towel and puppy pad underneath her while we have our evening meal in the garden
She seems comfortable for now and has enjoyed her cuddle she still managed to head it me and she rubbed her tiny face against my cheek.

Head butt not what I wrote

@stophuggingme

I am so sorry, it’s an unbearable situation. You have given your best and are still doing so. You little cat loves you so much and she appreciates that you are with her, on her journey out of life.

Thank you @Wolff
It’s so sad but I know what I have to do
I’m not sure if she will even last the night she seems so utterly forlorn now
I am bringing her home and burying her in the garden. I can’t leave her there i just can’t
We are going to paint rocks and plant something special to remember her

I’m so sorry she hasn’t recovered despite your best efforts. They really are members of the family and it’s awful when their time comes. If you don’t think she’ll survive the night it really would be kinder to have her PTS. A natural death can be quite distressing, for you and her. Could a neighbour sit in the house incase your children wake up? I would help a neighbour out in this situation without hesitation.

No I haven’t got anyone who can do that tonight In the current circumstances. If I did I would. I don’t even know my neighbours that well and I’m on my own with my three children aged six and under so not that easy. My mum is shielding, three of my closest friends are for one health reason or another
She’s had her third lot of pain relief and has drunk a bit
She tried to sit up
I’m just going to sit up with her as long as I can
She was fine on Saturday until just before 8pm and by then two of my children were asleep and I have spent half of today trying to get her out from under a cupboard involving emergency DIY.

I have tried my very best and I feel bad enough for this unexpected turn of events and I wish the vets could come here but they won’t and but I can’t do anything until the morning

You’ve done everything you can in the circumstances. The morphine will alleviate any suffering.

Hopefully she will fall asleep soon.

stophuggingme I just found your thread and just wanted to say I am so sad for you. I hope she has a comfortable night and you get some sleep 😿

She’s asleep in her carrier
I carried her to the litter tray she used it
Afterwards we went and sat in the garden for a little while she was wrapped up and it seemed to lift her spirits

We made a little video where I told her I loved her and rubbed her chin she loved that

I’m exhausted after being up all night
I have made her comfortable and I’ve given her everything I can tonight

I am dreading what tomorrow brings and just wish I could stop crying.

Thanks for all the kind words it has brought me some comfort and I know many of you have experienced what I’m going through right now

Goodnight

Is she awake?.

Hi OP I’m so sorry to hear about everything. Whatever happens today, you can know that she has had a wonderful and happy life in your loving care. You are the most amazing cat mum

Yes she’s still awake
I stayed up until 1am and then back down at 6 she’s just lying in her basket but she purrs when she sees me or I stroke her

I feel physically sick about saying goodbye to her today, my heart is literally hurting.

Oh @stophuggingme I know you don't want her to leave. You are doing what is best for her, as you have always done. The last thing she will see and hear is you and you will be with her at the end.

Sending you virtual hugs

It's such a tribute to your care stophuggingme. It makes it harder that lockdown means no home visits but as Wolfff says, you will be there for her, as you have been throughout her life. It is a hard step, which is why your heart is hurting.

Thinking of you all - you have given her the best life she could have had - you have cared for her amazingly in such difficult times. Sending love and virtual hugs to you.

Thinking of you today.
I have had to do this when PTS was the kindest thing to do but it's still heartbreaking

Thinking of you today. It's so painful when our furry companions die. We had to have our big ginger lad PTS last year. I still miss him.
I consoled myself with the fact he gave me an ending and your girl is giving you an ending too.
Virtual hugs

Thanks so much, all of you for your lovely messages
We are going this afternoon.
Just sat cuddling her now. She doesn’t want to eat or drink anything but has snuggled up with me and looks peaceful. The morphine is just keeping her on until the time comes.

I feel ok sometimes then it just hits me and I start sobbing.
Just want her to be at peace now

Dolly has walked over the Rainbow 🌈 Bridge
It was very peaceful and mercifully short. I was with her. I held her and told her I love her and that I would see her again one day. She started purring when I walked in the room. It was very hard but I know it was the only decision. The vet told me her heart was slowing and her blood pressure was very low so it was the right time.

It was the saddest goodbye but one full of love and trust. I miss her so very much already, she is irreplaceable to me and I will never find or have another cat quite like her.

💫🌈💓

So sorry to hear about Dolly.

I had to make the same decision just before lockdown, about my nearly 20 year old cat. I know it was the right decision, and the right time, but it didn't make it any less painful.

I'm in tears again now thinking about her, and Dolly.

Take care of yourself xx

goodbye sweet Dolly. You were so loved.

@stophuggingme that was a good end; you showed her love all the way. sending hugs virtually.

stophuggingme - am going against your name and sending a big cyber hug. Take care of yourself.

Dolly - you had the best of humans to care for you