Paper that's a tough one. Big sympathies from me and Mr C. Furry vibes coming your way.
If it's any help, I know two people who didn't keep their first babies, basikerly because they weren't done being teens yet. 'Mutual' decision ie a bit of strongarming from the professionals. As grownups they now have large and remarkably successful families and jobs.
On the other side, the mate I have who had her first DS at (just) 15 & then refused to leave him is a marine biologist now, and her DS is also one! I can imagine all too well the stress it's causing you but all I've seen are happy endings.
Better stick with Matt and the
in the meantime.