Tbf, I think he was John a lot in AJLT - especially s1 (for obvious reasons). I’m hoping I was right and this storyline turns into an arc about how grief affects people - because they are some rose-tinted specs Carrie has been wearing about Aidan and their history..!
I wondered too @Netaporter if this was a (frustrating) portrayal of grief - let’s not forget that the last time Carrie was with Aidan, she was also with Big a lot of the time.
Being back with Aidan wasn’t making her feel the love she had for him back then, but the love she had for Big. Not the settled, safe married love they had when he died but that passionate, illicit, uncertain love that defined so much of their relationship before they got married.
And when he made the comment about the smoke - in her OWN HOUSE- it was like a slap back to reality. This man never loved her as herself. His love was always conditional. Always rooted in her meeting a standard he set knowing she’d fail. Big for all his faults never judged her. Never tried to change her. He loved Carrie for Carrie.
I HATE AIDAN AND HIS LOWER TEETH ACTING SO MUCH.