Just Surf, feat Lost and The Small Mercies

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Hello and welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some silly chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.

Come and join and we'll all help each other surf the urges!

You both sound really poorly. Hope you're both resting and necking the night nurse.

I'd say I was well practiced in going about my day feeling rough but this is another level!

Yep lovely Night Nurse and Benadryl, my new addictions.

Hey ladies, hope you're feeling better Lost and Ponz, sounds like a horrible bug. Still surfing here, have behaved very inappropriately with that younger man tonight and feeling a bit stupid. Don't think I'll be seeing him again. Hey ho at least it distracted me. Time to start acting your age Hooch

Ah don't worry Hooch you're hardly an old woman yourself. His loss eh? You'll find someone on your wave length soon enough. I still think you're great. Don't dwell on it. I could write a book on the times I've had cringey social encounters!

I'm afraid my hopes for a month clean have fallen at the last hurdle. I'm off my tits. I'm going to feel so ill tomorrow what with this cold/worst cough known to man. Pray for me now. [complete idiot face]

I think I'm in the opposite place to the drug free smug tree whatever that's called. Shit creek probably.

Oh Lost never mind, enjoy it while it lasts. Quite impressed your nostrils are up to tbh! Would have been tempted myself tonight but have settled for copious amounts of vodka instead. Hope tomorrow isn't too bad, console yourself with the fact you would have felt shite anyway. I'll say a little prayer for you anyhow 😘

How are you lost? Didn't splosh last night night - I was rather French though!

Hooch, go you and your toyboy!

Hey Hooch he should be so lucky.

Lost hope you are not feeling too grim this morning.

I’m surfing on only because of lack of supplies. It really does help having no local dealer - I am sure I could find one but it would be the road to ruin.

Onwards and upwards.

Hey serial cross posted there. Hope you aren’t too hungover honey. I’m still recuperating from snotsville so managing to hold the booze back a bit

Such a bloody addict. Still think should really just go totally sober on jan and see if it transforms my life like all those AA/NA-ers reckon.

Morning all
Glad everyone kept their board afloat last night, apart from me.

Well done for cutting back on the booze Ponz. Sometimes I think my life will be transformed if I stay sober and clean but sometimes I think I might be expecting too much from life.

Hope everyone's hangovers are manageable and you've stopped cringing about last night Hooch. You'll look back and laugh about it I'm sure.

I'm not too bad although I've made my cough about ten times worse smoking last night. Just feel overwhelmingly sad and wobbly today.

Morning! Glad you're not feeling too bad Lost. Well done Serial and Ponz for surfing even if it was not through choice. I'm quite hungover and sorry for myself, just can't handle my drink anymore. Am trying to pretend last night didn't happen, what was I thinking? Out again tonight and really can't be arsed. I much prefer the non drinking me but all my social
life seems alcohol related. I suppose I could just stick to soft drinks said no one ever! Have a good day all x

Pretending last night didn't happen sounds like a sensible coping strategy to me Hooch

Be careful tonight Hooch. I recognise your mindset in myself sometimes and it usually ends up with me face down in a bag of drugs. I realise I'm the last person you should take advice from though.

I've showered, hoovered the house and tidied up so now feel a bit more in control of my chaotic life

Lost sorry you are feeling sad and sending you a massive hug.* Try to remember it’s the drugs and not your life. I have to say that the one think apart from my bank balance that has improved having had a drug free month is my mood.*

Hooch try not to overthink last night.* Let it go. Sending you a massive hug too.*

Oh I got the bold all wrong there. Sorry.

Thanks Ponz I'm trying not to wallow in my self inflicted low mood. Loved all the stars in your post, very Christmassy
Aiming once again for a month clean..day 1: be more Ponz.

Thanks Lost, I know what you mean but I should be ok I can't get it easily so unless I meet a like minded person should be safe. Famous last words... Hope your feelings a bit better, getting on with some housework is a good distraction. Thanks too Ponz, the memory is fading slightly

This made me laugh. Only got to the 'a bit rough' stage this morning luckily. Ended up in a well known TOWIE drinking establishment, it was dire and the drinks were def watered down.Think I was more sober when I left! Hope everyone has had a good Sunday and no one is at the 'Silent' stage

Gawd I think I was level 4 all day today "I've felt better to be honest"
At least the watered down drinks saved your head this morning Hooch will we see you propping up the bar in Towie soon?

I've shamefully wasted half the weekend getting high or pissed and the other half feeling like a zombie. Having a massive blip here. Sort of lost my head this weekend and it's passed in a blur.
Must try harder.

I was "a bit rough actually" this morning. Because I'm an idiot to counter this evening's boredom I'm considering going out.

A bold idea Serial on a school night. Hope you have your Captain Sensible underpants on. Sunday evenings are rubbish aren't they.

Ha I've had a few weekends like that lately Lost, it's that faulty off switch you know. At least it may keep you on the straight and narrow for a while now. Will not be appearing in TOWIE unless as someone's mother! I drove past Mr Rehabs road earlier, started to get fond memories of our past adventures and then I remembered last time I ended up somewhere between 'kill me' and 'silence' Hope your head clears soon Lost and enjoy your night out if you go Serial. Be careful!!

I stayed in and watched Louis Theroux. Gosh though, when will the boredom and flatness and the need for "something" end? I'm dying for a line right now - it's just ridiculous. I'm going to go to bed now feeling hard done by!

Jaysus serial watching Louis Theroux is going to help no one ever with additions! It’s so miserable but you also then have to watch people banging up and getting high. Just no. I think he’s gone over the line to voyeurism now and I def don’t get MN obsession with him being sexy!! Wahhh?

Just to put in context In case anyone thinks I’m being unsympathetic to hardcore homeless addicts I’ve worked the field for 25 years ! And as you may have noticed have a few issues myself

Your job sounds very interesting Ponz hats off to you, it must be really hard going.
I watched Louis too last night Serial what are we like! Heroin Town was a rather depressing episode I must admit.

I'm not sure how to tell you this Ponz but Louis is coming on our next Columbian coach trip. He's going to follow us around in his knitted jumper, asking leading questions and nodding sympathetically.

I think that a documentary about our coach trip would win many awards!