Jive Bishop and The Surfettes: Surfing on

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Welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some absurd chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.
Come and join and we'll hopefully all help each other to surf the urges!

Nearly sploshed tonight. Am having a glass of wine and going to bed.

Still on board here. Watching a bit of Glasto too and turning a bit French.

Reminiscing about Orbital at Glasto 94 when drugs weren't a problem for me, just really good fun.
I'm channelling my mature sensible self tonight.

Imagine us all at glasto this weekend! In snorkels and flippers. We'd start a trend.

I'll pencil it in for Glasto 2018. Surfers Go Camping, bring your flippers and day glo snorkels..
that thread would definitely get deleted

The thread wouldn't even get started - nevermind deleted!

Gosh, I'd love to be at a festival right now!

And Radiohead sang creep!!!

Was French and asleep by that point but DP woke up for it.

Have far too much on today.

Woke me up for it. Was dribbling on sofa.

I didn't think to watch it, I only went partially French last night. Was very restrained for a change!

Morning all.
Hope we're all feeling human today. Ponz you're dh woke you up for Radiohead? He must think you're so very special. He he.

I'm a bit hungover today. Had to go out early this morning to walk my friend's dog. I encountered lots of jolly dog owners bellowing Morning and being absurdly cheerful, whilst holding bags of poo. It's a strange world.

Have a good Saturday

It's very quiet on here tonight? I was meant to be going out tonight but my friend was ill and I was bored so I conceived myself it would be ok to go a little bit overboard But can't bloody find a way to do it! Mr failed Rehab is busy and Mr Bad Influence (yes I was desperate!) is ignoring me. Couple of twats! I'm sure it's for the best but I am sooo bored and vodka isn't helping. Hope everyone is doing ok

Ah that's frustrating but silver lining there Hooch.
Not Mr. Bad Influence, remember last time he lunged at you and you had to make a hasty cab exit.. sorry, shouldn't laugh, it sounded awkward.

I'm having a meh evening sipping Stella and watching boring shite tv with dh. Dealer text asking if I wanted to pay off the one I got on tick from last time, he would give me another on tick. Not sure of the logic there but I said not tonight. Get me! regretting it now

Well done Lost, massive balls of steel saying no to a text from a dealer!

Yes I know, a very bad idea contacting Mr BI, and then he had the cheek to ignore me. He owes me money from last time and I said I'd let him off if he sorted me out. Grrr... So glad now that I didn't, just a moment of weakness. I'll look forward to the silver lining in the morning

Well done lost! Had some gin and listened to music last night. No sploshing here!

Thanks, I feel like I might actually be making progress with my surfing, rather than going in circles.
Hope everyone else is ok.Dusty, Ponz ( have you resisted The Shoe?)

Have a happy Sunday.

Had a happy Saturday, maybe a bit too happy? It's all downhill from here.
And the days are getting shorter.
Oh my poor nose

Don't overthink it tonight Dusty you have the comedown blues. Things will look a lot more positive after a decent night's sleep.
Get well soon Dusty's nose

Ok confession time I had one big line per night Friday and Sunday. Remember I'm a secret snorter so can't get too faced . Maybe had 2 on Saturday. So sick of feeling borderline high and then borderline shite the next day. Very ashamed of the sneaky secrecy. Oh what to do. Cannot seem to break free.

I meant sat and sun. None on Friday.

Sending a hug dusty.

Evening all.
I thought your surfboard was a bit quiet and abandoned this weekend Ponz. You were quite restrained. I suppose it depends how big the lines were though. I'm dreaming about a line the length of a small table..

Jokes aside, I understand about the awful shame and secrecy. Very few people know what I get up to behind closed doors. I actually find it exhausting trying to hide it and putting on a cheerful face when I'm a mess inside is soul destroying sometimes. I do get that and wish I could give you a big hug.

I've never known anything get a grip on me like cocaine. The psychological addiction is insanely hard to overcome.
I'm not sure if what I'm saying is making you feel any better but you're not alone with this.x

Looking forward now to a hopefully surftastic week..

Thanks lost. Appreciated.

I don't seem to need to take loads. If my DP was on it too I doubt we would. It's always a line or two accompanied by loads of booze.

Sometimes I think a massive binge once s month would be healthier. I feel like such a sneaky dirty person. And my mood is always pretty awful. I just need to stop buying it. Don't have can't take.

That should have read ' no doubt we would'.

Ponz - I totally understand. A comedown is shit. A secret comedown is shitter.

You want to change Ponz so try to hold onto that.
For me, a big turning point was realising that I didn't want the lifestyle that I'd fallen into. Just living for the highs and struggling through the days I didn't have it. That's not to say I don't slip up and go back to it but I think my attitude towards taking it has changed, as has yours.

I'm probably not explaining this well. No doubt Serial will be able to sum it up in a few words. You have a knack for that Serial..

Have a terrific Tuesday team.