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[serialtester]

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Any mention of knitting or adult colouring will not be allowed!

I know, I did think about giving it to him but not sure I can face him. That was soooo awkward. Means I'll think twice about contacting him in the future. Have had shower and shoulders a bit better, had grand plans to plough through my comedown by mowing the grass and taking car to garage. Now thinking I might go back to bed. Stomach hurting now so can torture myself by thinking what serious medical condition I have given myself by overindulging. 'Drama Queen'!

I think getting your head down for a bit would be good hooch.

Yeah you will feel better later Hooch, just rest and have something to eat if you can.
I ended up having a bit of a row with dh last night because I accused him of hogging the gram. I'm a prize idiot.

Did he hog it though lost?!

Am bored shitless, shitless I tell you and am drinking le vin!

Last night i was meant to be going out with a friend but at the last minute they cancelled on me because another friend had turned up at theirs with a couple of grams. Feel a mixture of hurt and jealous!!!

Hello bored Serial Have a vin on me
It's annoying your friend cancelled. I wouldn't take it personally, I just think drugs make people a bit selfish . I'd be seething though, wankers!

To stop arguments, dh and I have a rule that one of us racks up 2 lines and the other one picks which line they want. Then we don't accuse each other of putting themselves out a fatter line.
Anyway, as we got more fucked, dh was flouting the rules.

Oh my God, we sound like fucking head cases..

I hate what drugs turn me into and I've wasted today. I blew out my friend this afternoon saying I had a migraine. See, coke makes you a flaky friend.

I think my "recovery" (that's such a wanky phrase!!) as time goes on is highlighting differences between me and various people in my life. It's hard tbh. I don't want to lose friends but I don't want to slip back.

If I stopped smoking I'd be the loneliest motherfucker on the planet!!!!

Love your coke rules lost!!!

It is hard Serial I think you're brilliant. My recovery journey is turning into one of those Choose Your own Adventure books where you have to pick an option and keep ending up back at the start.

Yes we have a little plaque hanging in the kitchen for Coke House Rules.
Not really, we're not complete weirdos, although it would be useful for settling disputes..

I agree I think you are brilliant too Serial, amazing willpower.

Lost I have been feigning illness this afternoon too. Did I go back to bed? No. I did the rest of it. Had quite a nice time actually, cleaning the house and gurning Tomorrow is going to hurt. Sorry for being a bad influence last night x

I probably would've done the same Hooch. I just can't have it in the house.
Years ago when I was young and even more stupid than I am now, my bf and I decided to buy some in bulk to sell. We ended up staying in our flat for 2 weeks and doing the lot. Just as well that career didn't take off I suppose.

I'd have done it all today too!!! I'm struggling this evening. Alcohol isn't cutting it at all.

I hate those cravings, Serial. Coke brain is a manipulative bastard, it only tells you about the good bits.

Honestly it's not worth it. Compounded by me last night. My heart was racing, I smoked a hundred fags, couldn't remember how to get to sleep and regained consciousness to find myself in a fear and self loathing film.

Dh wants us to go and watch boxing at the pub. I hate boxing and my life is pants.

I feel bad for going on about it, not helpful! If it's any consolation, I have also been drinking like a mofo and look like the living dead

Lost, certainly living up to your name there. Wow 2 week bender, impressive!

You'll feel better tomorrow Lost. I have ordered the boxing on Sky and DS has 2 friends coming to watch it and for a sleepover. Kill me now

Hooch, it don't make any difference so don't apologise!!! Go on all you want!

Lol at lost watching the boxing in the pub!!!

I think my problem is that being clean is no longer new and exciting and I'm really really bored.

I don't tell anyone all this shameful stuff in real life. I think that was the point I realised that I was a complete mess there was a problem.

It all got weird and we spent hours one night looking for some that we'd stashed away and couldn't remember where..

My life is just as boring with a coke problem in it, Serial.

I'm just stuck on a coke merry go round of leaving it, going back to it, hating it.. and repeat.

Dh has gone to the boxing on his own. Fuck listening to a load of blokes shouting "Hit 'im, you cuunt"
Good luck with your Ds' boxing party, Hooch hope it's a quiet one

The coke merry go round is pretty tiring and boring too!! Maybe I should start knitting or something to make the evenings fly by?!

We're back to bloody knitting and colouring books although no one wakes up in the morning cursing themselves for knitting too much the night before. Or do they?

I think we all need to retire to Australia and take up surfing for real. We'll all be fit and tanned like people on Home and Away.

The knitting merry go round is impossible to get off. It's the needles. Is home and away still going?

I've blown my savings on knitting patterns. My fingers are blistered and I woke up this morning in a tangle of wool with a knitting needle in my ear.. I can't stop, please help.

I've snorted my knitting patterns and wool. Seemed like the only reasonable thing to do.

Just stick to pure wool though Serial God knows what shit they put in those wool blends.

The acrylic shit really fucked me up man.