The bishop leads the turkeys out of dangerous waters. Arm bands optional.

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Open!!

So funny but actually true, serial

Night lost, I'm off too.

Night you lot, thanks so much this is best fucking therapy ever

Night you lot!

Night all - probably see you all tomorrow, itchy teeth and all x

Hi Sunday - your post sounds just like one of my first posts. I've only been here for a couple of weeks but it felt oh so good to admit my 'secret' life. To the outside I'm a middle-aged, middle-class sahm, I wouldn't even admit to most of my 'mum' friends that I drink wine every night let alone anything else!! You are in the right place - no judgements here only support, and a bit of silliness
Snow - I'm so pleased you sound so happy! Go you!!
Lost and Serial I've been training on the bagpipes for years! Maybe we could do a relay in Columbia??

I'll pack the bagpipes

I'm out on Saturday for a meal with some of my mum friends. I really want to just go out, actually eat and drink cocktails like a normal person, not push my food around the plate waiting to furtively nip to the loos for a line

Hi Sunday, I'm quite new on here too and you could be me! Same age, live in 'naice' area, mum friends have no idea... must be more of us around than we realise

Well done for staying off it for a month that's Amazeballs, one slip up is nothing, you'll be fine for the weekend.

Night all xx

Sunday - I know what you mean about being normal. I find if I go out drinking without the white lady I make up for it by getting horribly pissed - but at least it's just a hangover the next day, not that horrible comedown self-loathing feeling we all know and love We'll be here to throw you armbands and a life vest to keep you on the board (if you need them) x

Eurgh 1.30 am, no fags left and me and Dh have spent the last couple of hours having a really intense conversation about how he is going to make loads of money out of the embers of yet another failed business venture.
The sad thing is that getting spangled is the only time we really have anything in common. Sex went out the window 3 years ago, and I don't think either of us are that bothered.
Sorry I'm rambling, at least it's on here and I'm not scouring FB for conversation!

Morning coffees for everyone.

Sorry you were feeling so down about things yesterday, Sunday.

My husband will sometimes go off on a tangent talking (at length) about retraining in another field of work..all a pipe dream really and fairly boring to hear for the millionth time

Hope you're not feeling too awful this morning.

Have a good Friday all x

Morning Ilost. Not too bad all things considered, I managed to get some sleep but need to try not too beat myself up today for caving.

Morning all. Having an internal battle with myself. 65% absolutely not going to touch a drink and just going to go up to bed and watch tv tonight and 35% fuck it friends just home just have a drink. Need to keep thinking of how I will feel tomorrow. Self loathing. Regret. Paranoia. Argh!

It's tricky Got because you probably feel almost obliged to see your friend if she's been away and are dying to catch up with her. It's always awkward to say no to these things isn't it?

Would it help if you spoke to her today and gave it to her straight- you're trying to stay off coke/ booze for a while so you can only see her briefly or something?

Love the way you've worked out your really accurate percentages

Hi all, sorry for disappearing act. Not caught up on all the posts. Just here to wave a Friday armband.

Very, very depressed due to work and am applying left, right and centre. Proud that I'm not using coke as a crutch as I did in the past though. I've been sleeping soooooo much. I have to drag myself in each day. I'm so down that I can't even be bothered to clean

I just scanned through and saw that Witty has taken my cleaning crown 👑

Can I join please ? My addictions are a form of Wac A Molesums, I bash down one and another pops up, am always battling with any or all of coke, cigs, fags, booze and spending, and so true about having the party animal gene, I always have to be the last one standing. Have been reading this thread since it began and you're definitely my crew!

Hi citrus! There's definitely more of us than you'd think.

Cleaning work sounds like it's really getting to you. Is the sleeping just because you are feeling so down about work or did you think it could be early pregnancy? I always feel really down at the beginning.

Lost na it's an all or nothing situation I don't have any other time time I can see her except tonight due to rubbing kids around to activities then dropping off for sleepovers etc. I'm still leaning towards not drinking and staying strong. My dh is just going to go to the pub I think. Which actually makes me angry as I'm trying to stop and he just says everything in moderation and doesnt think there's a problem. Well every weekend or every second weekend isn't moderation is it. Makes me annoyed that we can't have a drink here altogether because none of them respect that I can't have it around me.

Well we've made it to Friday!! I've got two hours until I'm kid free and I'm starting to get that urge!! Wearing my armbands though and as soon as my kids are dropped off I'm going straight to my refuge!

How are you all doing?

Sunday - totally get what you mean about just being normal, I can't appear to just go out for a quiet drink, it always ends up in an epic sesh.

Here's to the weekend - this is going to fucking suck

No need to apologise, Cleaning. It's just awful feeling stressed day in day out, it's exhausting so no wonder you're tired. Great you haven't be liaising with the white lady to get you through

Hope you have a lovely chilled weekend

Welcome, Citrus Ah yes, the Holy Trinity; booze, coke and fags!
Let's fight it together. Hope to see you sticking around.

Agree, Got and Lady "A quiet drink" is not in my vocabulary either it always turns into a session even when I've convinced myself it's not going to. WTF is that all about?

It won't suck tonight, Lady, and think how great you'll feel waking up all fresh tomorrow!

I just have no self control Lost and it's ridiculous that I have to go to the extreme of hiding at my friends house to avoid it!

I know it won't suck. I'm just having my childish tantrum about not going out this weekend lol

Thanks for warm welcome, am out tonight with friend, no white lady involved but boy, do we drink when we're together which naturally lowers the resistance to everything else. How do other folks do moderate and normal? Am so tired of struggling with the impulse of excess, it never leaves me and is exhausting!
E

"The subjects appear to be hunting in many places, fervently seeking, and this activity gains in momentum and intensity"
I once unscrewed several lightbulbs in the house as I just knew I'd hidden a wrap somewhere

Do you want me to come round and search for it Citrus? I'm like a sniffer dog..
Finders Keepers I'm afraid

I'm actually determined to stay on my board tonight. I'm SICK of wrecking the whole weekend, or losing days for a high. It's so not worth it.