Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

serial we'd probably all get on each other's tits, talking over each other

Haha! I hadn't imagined anyone else talking - you'd all be fascinated by my profound stream of consciousness!!

and I'd nick all your fags

Serial keep strong 💪 my lovely, wind the film to the end....,today I felt utterly horrific, I kept thinking "I just want to die" I didn't really.....but I did feel bad enough to just not want to be conscious, that is a bad bad feeling, and so not worth the very short period of feeling high, I was 'on it' for 7hrs last night and only enjoyed the first half hour.........so for half an hour of feeling good I lost £80 and 24 hrs.....really??? WTF????

I'd cry!! All though to be fair I always have back up fags!

Flat, it happened and you're through the worst. 7 hours - could have been loads worse. Whole weekend binge anyone? Now that's shit. As is a line on a Monday morning to get yourself to work.

I'm sat here vaping furiously!

SMART recovery meetings are very good for working out relapse indicators - from that you can write/draw your own relapse signature and techniques you have learned in SMART to break the cycle. I'll give you an example...

You have some bad news. Your instinct is to pick up your phone and buy your substance of choice. What thoughts run through your head? How do you stop yourself from doing that?

Someone wrote: "only one dabble won't hurt. Need to challenge that thought. Here is a list of things that have gone wrong as a result of me using. X Y Z. How can I stop myself from using? I need to ring a supportive friend. Here is a list of friends I can ring that will come over and support me. 1 2 3."

for all of you from an addicts partner.
There were a few years of me doing it with him but I have stopped. I was never addicted to it but I am addicted to him which makes me want to do it with him.

Addiction is a soul destroying I wish you all well.

Serial and ilostit your banter is making me smile, and fruitcider your positive energy is just what I needed today,, thank you

At my worst I was on the pills day and night. I used them to wake up, to go to sleep, to calm me down etc etc.

Small relapses are not as "bad" as not being able to function without the drug of choice. There obviously not good either but hopefully you can understand what I'm trying to say.

Fruit I have met some shitty MH and addiction nurses in my time. If I ever relapse I want smuggling into you "establishment" to be looked after by you please.

Yep, I know that feeling flat I don't really enjoy it either then hours of shit afterwards. You'll feel better and stronger tomorrow. What fruitsays makes sense, almost like giving yourself a mental slap.

Thank you stabby I can only imagine it's almost worse watching someone you love do that to themselves.

Fruit, vaping is next on my list of things to be addicted to!

Stabby, thanks - so sorry you had to go through that.

Flat, on our fictional night out you can nick lost's line while she's stealing my fags. I won't notice because I'll be too busy going on about something incredibly longwinded and boring!

Unborn thank you for that perspective, I do feel grateful that the addiction is compartmentalised over a period of 48hrs in the week. I actually bloody love my life Sunday to Thursday! However it is an exhausting and soul destroying cycle to be on all the same. Massive respect to you for pulling yourself through, I can only imagine how all consuming a 24/7 addiction was, you are a superstar

Love you guys. Really hope we can help each other. See you don't need chemicals to be witty and smart, serial

flat things have been bleak for me today too. You'll be alright you come across as so together and self aware. Keep trying that's the main thing at the moment.

I lost its pretty horrendous, especially as it's not just coke he will pretty much take any thing. He would prefer coke but it's "pure" round here at £100 a gram so bloody expensive.

He's doing really well though for the last 4 months or so it's a once a month weekish binge instead of 5 out of 7 days.

It's the lying that's the hardest to live with. I don't trust him anymore, Iv hard a real hard time trying not to accuse him every time he leaves the house because he's sneaky.

He's turnt me into somebody I don't really like, I hate not believing him.

I have his bank card most of the time so he doesn't really have access to cash but that doesn't stop him as everyone will tic him. Then I have to had over cash to pay for it. He doesn't own a mobile because he chucks them away if he disappears for a week so I can't get hold of him.

It's hard but as he knows I will be here every step of the way, I know he's worth it.

The money I would have spent on a few grams has been converted into some nice boots. Hope everyone has a chilled night tonight and a fresh Sunday. It's so nice talking to people who get it.

Stabby, you sound like such a nice person. He's lucky to have you. Look after yourself though.

Serial you know me too well I have been known to nick a line or two! Husband normally clueless, as he yaks on!!

In all seriousness, massively loving this group too, so glad we can all be honest, and laugh a little at the utter ridiculousness of it all. Sleep well everyone, and serial step away from Craigslist and get yourself to bed

Thank you! I didn't realise how much writing that down would make me feel better.

Flat, how did you know what I was doing?! Am going to bed very soon. Have just put my electric blanket on and am ignoring the text from a friend who can set up a line for me. Electric blanket vs going outside - no contest! Night all - tomorrow is going to be great!

stabby come and get support on here if it will help. Don't feel guilty for feeling the way you do. It must be so hard supporting your husband. I'm glad things have improved a bit. Yes to the lying. I lie to myself over it the most

Glad you bought boots, serial instead of the stupid alternative. Good choice.

Hi... I've followed this chat for a few days and have cut down a lot over the last 6 months but have really struggled with cravings over the last 48 hours...

I've NCed for this... my username tells you how I've kept myself distracted

Welcome to our little support thread, cleaning. The cravings are just all consuming sometimes aren't they? Cutting down is a big achievement. Hopefully we can help each other get through it. Distraction definitely helps.

Cleaning feel free to come and clean my house if you need a bit distraction

My housework standards are slipping, early pregnancy does not agree with me

I think I will stick around if that's ok.

I go from feeling guilty to pure rage at how he can put us through this. When I'm angry with him I say it to him too knowing that he doesnt have the answers.
The lying has destroyed me really I'm so paranoid that now he's doing really well I still can't stop the analysing everything he does. trying to stop him from going out, searching his stuff when he's not watching, clock watching.
But I know I would rather have him like this than not at all and we will get through this like we have for 6 years already.

I'm off to bed but will pop back in sometime.