Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

ILost I did eventually but it took an inpatient stay to do so.

I still waver sometimes. I'm somewhat lucky the MH meds I'm currently on do not react well with it.

You should be proud of yourself coming out the other end and being able to help others.

Again different to coke but the reason I was hospitalised was because I overdosed on it. I spent 5 days in a coma and really shouldn't be here to tell you this.

It was (prescribed) diazepam if it wasn't obvious.

I'm not sure what the OD symptoms are of coke but il tell you now it wasn't fun.

I still waver too, unborn, sometimes falling right off the wagon. believe me I'm far from perfect. You're welcome to post on here if you're struggling.

That sounds horrendous and terrifying. I hope you've recovered. All addictions are horribly similar in a way I think.

There was a huge back story that's not really relevant. My 2015 was like a bloody soap story.

I'm quite open about it on here and don't mind my story being here to be a cautionary story to others.

I am ok now but I think an addiction support thread like this is a brilliant idea.

Thanks ILost il never be completely over the addiction but I've come to terms with what happened now. If that makes sense.

Unborn so sorry to hear your story, that's utterly horrific! So pleased you are better. Stroke, heart attack and death are symptoms of OD on coke, you would think that would be a small motivation to change, but it just doesn't seem to work that way.

Flat I don't think any addict truly believes the worst could ever happen to them.

Your doing so well honest, without that hospital stay I wouldn't of stopped.

Friendly detox nurse just popping her head in to say...

You all ROCK! You are doing so well! Recovery is never easy, but IS possible. Keep going!

(Scurries out again)

I'm fairly open about my struggles too, but its nice to have a thread like this where you can be brutally honest about it all with like minded people that don't judge. Glad you are better. It sounds like you've been to hell and back, and survived!

fruitcider feeling quite down today so thanks for your encouragement.

Any time! I start detoxing on average 6 new patients a day and really know their struggles. I know this is incredibly tough, even without the physical symptoms psychologically it is just awful right? But every day sober gives you a chance at a sober free life. Relapse is common, but the trick is to get straight back on the wagon and carry on the good work. It takes practice to get all manner of things in life right - I feel sobriety is the same! But recovery IS possible! It really is!

X

Fruit cider loving your post thank you for the encouragement, please do pop in again when your passing

Thank you! I can talk recovery all day long, my best friend is an alcoholic, I live in hope that one day he will choose a different life. He's the main reason I went into this line of work really. Addiction can happen to anyone, no-one is immune.

What has everyone got planned for this evening, to keep you busy?

Fruit is a very wise and helpful poster.

It is so hard. I feel like I've been fighting this for so long now, like it's always going to be there luring me back. Sometimes I'm so sick of fighting it. Sorry for the moan, I know it's my own fault. Just a bit disappointed in myself that I went back to it last night because I feel like I can't just go out and socialise like a "normal" person.
Anyway, thanks for your kind words.

ILost it's ok to moan, this is hard work and does become tiring. Have you got another date in your mind for when you want to try again?

Hello Unborn! Not sure about me being wise and helpful but I certainly try my best! Thank you x

Yes I'm back on the wagon now, fruit hoping it was just a blip really but to be honest I'm slipping up about twice a month at the moment. I wish you could bottle your positivity, I'd drink it

Hello unborn and fruit! Addiction is a bastard (she says smoking a cigarette!) Coke is so peculiar because of the psychological craving. Coke brain is a good description! I've never ever encountered anything else that is so good but so bad. 2 weeks and one day on the wagon again. Hopefully I'll keep it up.

Good going, serial.

Only twice a month is really good! That means you are sober the majority of the time. Don't underestimate your achievement! The main thing is that you have chosen to get back on the wagon and give it another go each time.

Are you getting any support from drug and alcohol agencies? I really would recommend them. They can offer loads of psychosocial interventions, which teach you about your own relapse signature and how to work positively with your cravings. Just remember, "this too shall pass" x

Hello serial and good work! Cocaine brain is accurate from what I've seen. The psychological withdrawals can be horrific. X

Thank you. I did a stint years ago with an NA group when things got really bad so I think I have ways to deal with it but obviously I'm not always putting those into practice.
Going to have a bath and watch tv for a bit. Looking forward to waking up feeling a bit brighter tomorrow.

Agree with fruit, twice a month is good going. I'm interested in the relapse signature thing - when I relapse it's the same thought process each and every time. Last night, and right now tbh, I can feel the urge to flip the "fuck it" switch. I'm doing my best to ignore it though.

Lost, you will feel sooo much better tomorrow. The devil in me is imagining what an awesome night we could all have if we ever met! Probably a very good job this is anonymous

Yes I'm interested in the relapse signature thing too. Sometimes something takes over and overrides the rational thoughts like my brain's been taken over.
serial keep strong