Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

stabby of course you feel like that. Addiction is a horribly selfish disease and it's hard to separate the person from the addiction if you see what I mean. I hope you're ok. Feel free to vent on here.
Early night for me too.

Early night here too... the house is sparkling

No coke since Tuesday, it's usually twice a week (down from 5/6 nights a week up till last spring then 3/4 nights last summer) so I'm hoping it's going to go down to once week and then less and less. The cravings are getting easier to deal with and I'm down to 3 cigs a day too. I barely drink these days either.

Fingers crossed. Night all and good luck

3 cigs a day? I'm impressed! And well done on cutting down on the coke.

I was very tempted again last night but didn't give in. 2 weeks and 2 days.

Yeah I have one cig before work, one on the way home and one after dinner. I've stopped taking cigs or a lighter out with me during the day. It's been hard though. Especially on Friday nights when I usually get through 6 or 7 but then I go back to 'normal'.

Two weeks and two days, well done! I did a totally clean month last summer but then started again, albeit more moderately.

As fucked up as it was when I was pretty much high every night, I could function. I could sleep, get up on time, I don't suffer negative side effects, hence why I have found it so fucking difficult to stop. The money was getting was getting way out of hand though. I shudder when I think how much I've pissed away.

Onwards and upwards though

Well done serial.

Cleaning have you used any aides to help with the stopping smoking? I need to pack in at least for the pregnancy but it's my last vice. I would never touch drink it drugs while expecting but smoking is defiantly my crutch.

No I haven't but then I was only a smoker for about 18 months after a bereavement. I had zero appetite and just smoked. As I got over the grief the smoking, and coke, have subsided.

Sorry I can't be more help. How far along are you? Congratulations and well done for staying clean whilst expecting. A year before the bereavement I had a miscarriage. I was doing coke but didn't have a clue i was pregnant. It still gets to me but I'm starting to get over things.

Life eh!

5/6 weeks so very early. There's a back story so it's very much fingers crossed at the minute.

It wasn't your fault if you didn't know. I didn't find out till about 20 weeks with DD1 and didn't stop anything

She was fine but that was just luck I think.

I can understand that. A bereavement ended up with me being placed on the diazepam so it's really how it all started.

Cleaning, it sounds like you've had a tough time . It's brilliant that you've started to take back control of things and cut down so much. I haven't kicked the fags

Onwards and upwards, I like that!

Hope everyone has a lovely Sunday.

Congrats unborn! And way to go cleaning....stick around people, so good to know we are all in this together. Have been looking for other mums in a similar situation for bloody ages, but it's not exactly the easiest playground conversation to have. So glad Mumsnet towers added the Addiction section. I wonder how many others there are out there? If you are reading this and relating to it, do hop on board!

Cleaning - sounds like you really have been through it.

Unborn - congratulations!

Good luck unborn We weren't trying as we already have ds and weren't planning anymore. To this today I'm not even sure when/how it happened. I've read a lot about it and I know that early mcs are v common... I suppose something could have gone wrong either way. It's still shit though.

Just had my first cig of the day and going to try not to have anymore.

Dh got paid £100 for helping out a mate today. We're both avoiding talking about what we'd like to spend it on of you catch my drift.

I know what you mean about playground conversation flatwhite... it's not an ideal ice-breaker, pardon the pun

When I had an early miscarriage last year I was worried it was down to the antidepressants I had been taking.

My GP did say normally before 13 weeks it is a problem with the baby and usually means there was issues that meant the baby was incomparable with life.

I know that sounds quite clinical and cold but it did make me feel slightly better.

I know loads of mothers add

Posted too soon.

I know loads of mothers addicted to tranquillisers, sleeping pills and painkillers. You would be surprised to look at them, it's common knowledge that I've been in hospital so I get confided in a lot.

I know I'm mentioning it in a general way here but I wouldn't dream of telling anyone else there issues.

Cleaning It sounds like you're having a little wobble. I'm an old hand at this, I know the signs!.. It's been a while, husband's come home with a bit of cash, it's on your mind...
Try not to ignore the voice in the your head telling you it's not a good idea and try not to get fixated on how that first line will feel. Serial has a good trick of Playing The Film To The End which might help.

Let me know how you get on. I won't judge.

Thank you so much I lost. The last two nights my mum stayed with us so it was easy to push it to the back of my mind. I can't remember which poster I read (poss flatwhite) who mentioned triggers at home. I sometimes think that I scrub the life out of the granite counters in the kitchen because I'm trying to block out all the 'fun' on them...

The granite reference isn't a stealth boast by the way, it's just so fucking smooth that it's perfect to rack up a line on after ds has gone to bed.

Fuck I'm a shit mum

I wrote that it was "easy" to push it to the back of my mind ha ha I meant to say easier. It's never fucking easy

Fucks sake I'm barely coherent. That was meant to say 'fun' I've had on them.

Jesus Christ I'm distracted

The guilt is awful isn't it when you have children. The fact that you feel guilty tells me you're not a shit mum at all. I have children though, I know how you feel.

It's hard as well when you have a partner in crime (your husband). I get it.

Really jealous of your lovely clean house and granite counters by the way

Cleaning, you may have read I had so called fun on Friday, as I said I enjoyed the first half hour and the rest is a blur... I then spent the next 24hrs feeling like death. You know that's how it will end. Keep cleaning.... or could you something a little more fun? Baking? Watching an intense movie? Buy something online or £100

Online for not or

Keep in touch, echoing ilostit, won't be judging you

Cleaning - sounds like you really have been through it.

Unborn - congratulations!

No idea why that posted again! Cleaning - a Sunday night binge is always the worst. Play the film - you have Monday AND a comedown. Clean shit and go to bed early. You can do this.

Am also jealous of your granite counters!!! Mine are shit mdf. When we have our fictional mad meet up we won't be setting up the lines here!!

That's the fucked up thing though, I truly don't get comedowns. My nickname is Wonder Woman... that's so outing but fuck it.

I'm hoovering right now. God that used to be one mine and dh's euphemisms. So shameful.

I'm avoiding the kitchen and hence the fucking granite