Crepe And Stormy

[Cremo]

Over here Crepemunks!
Hope no one else has started one

[Blackduck]

Rudy sending {{ }} and really hoping it's all getting better - and if you want to talk you know where the PM button is!

BTM. - what a horrible job. Ddad is slowly clearing dmums stuff which is sad. He gave me her front door key as 'she won't need it'. Yesterday she was compis and kept saying she wanted to die/ wished she was dead. So when she's out of it you deal with the rambling and the vitriol (specifically at Ddad) and when she's with it she wants to die :(. God it's bloody grim.

Here ds was better yesterday but I know we will continue to get meltdowns re BDhound - thanks for all the lovely comments, he was a gorgeous, if completely loopy, hound.

[motherinferior]

Rudy, lots of love.

BD, how awful.

I am staring slightly vaguely at the screen.

[bigTillyMint]

Big sympathies BD - my DM is physically pretty healthy but would happily say goodbye with immediate effect . Pets are so lucky - I really hope that the UK sorts something out re euthanasia by the time I'm like that.

Rudy, big hugs - I am here too if you need to talk.

CV, your Kirsch story made me - thanks!

[Rosebag]

My DDads care home had a drinks trolley too. And why not, eh.

tilly all we can do is make sure our loved ones know our wishes whilst we're still of sound mind. I've told mine repeatedly that if I lose my mind or bodily functions or both, PUT ME IN A HOME /HOSPICE. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I BEG NOT TO GO. My DSis who lives in the US is a medical ethicist and specialises in death and dying. Perhaps I should get her to do a talk for us, when she's next over. She's quite an authority on the subject!

rudy hang on in there. Do trust one or some of us with your confidence one day soon. Don't be an island. ( ..... I can talk.....that's what DH always says to me...)

BD' So sorry for you all. And poor DS. I have never forgotten how it felt when my first pet died when I was a kid.

Thinking also of auriga and monty every day. Other peoples' bereavements seem to upset me as much as my own.

I am Billy No Mates at the moment, sitting in the first of several locations having arranged drop -ins to disseminate information to colleagues on Union business. And as I'm back on the wagon, no feckin' cake allowed, as compensation.

Still, trying to focus on the positive. Started teaching a delightful new class last night. Real sweeties all of them. dS2 had a great time at the gig last night, and tonight we are off to his last evah music dept recital at his school
He went off in a suit and tie this morning, saying it was befitting to a classical piece he was playing . No idea what. He won't tell us what he's doing although he did let slip something about a sixth form farewell performance. He also went off with the score of Book of Mormon !!! I gather that Dneph is playing in the ukulele band, and two DNeices are singing. So DM is also coming along to see the DGC. Bloody family Von Trapp not
Any ways, I think I will cry.....Feel like the end of an era.

[bigTillyMint]

I don't think DMs Nursing Home has a drinks trolley - perhaps it's not posh enough?

Rose, the family concert sounds lovely.

DD is apparently in the library. She said she got there for when it opened at 10 and T 10.04 it was full! This is quite a sizeable local public library!

[Cremo]

Gosh I don't think you get drinks trolleys here probably because of God or something we used to take my Gm to Lidl to get bottles of wine to smuggle in to the home.
Rose I would love your dsis to do a talk. That would be amazingly interesting.

I have had that wretched virus. Starting with a sore throat and feeling weak and vomitous.then bringing up the rear, a hacking cough and complete exhaustion. Timing has been terrible as I've had to KBO as we are at the moment of transition to the new Co. It has not been joyful, and I've not been composed or professional at all. More like Grumpy Knickers.
To top it all I have had news about my eyes which are getting macular degeneration due to diabetes. This can lead to blindness so am having a major overhaul of diabetic control atm which is not tight enough apparently. I really want a pump, but am being denied one because I have not die a course they run. I haven't done this because they run it over a whole week during the day, which is impossible.
Sigh.

Dd's visit was really lovely, so I am holding on to that.

[motherinferior]

Oh bugger re the amd, Crem. Do you know if it is, in the revolting terminology, 'wet' or 'dry'?

[Rosebag]

Oh Crem. Yes, what MI said and is it the sort that you can have injections to halt the progress?

[Cremo]

It's not mad as such. It's advanced proliferative diabetic retinopathy which is slightly different and related to lack of oxygen in the blood, I think. They do warn you , when you are diagnosed that you might go blind ( in my case over 40 years ago, but this has come as a terrible shock. the carry on with the various opticians and not being able to get the prescription right was more than likely to do with it. Have to now spend most of life getting sugars bang on to prevent progression. No one has mentioned lasers yet, but I know it's an option after the above. I am getting a new monitor that works out the exact insulin to take apaz.
FUCK!

[bigTillyMint]

Oh Cremo, you poor thing - sounds like you are having a terrible time with your body as well as work

About to set off to deliver a load of sewing stuff to someone I contacted online. Hope she doesn't urn out to be a hairy - handed trucker who likes patchwork

[motherinferior]

Ooh yes I've written about that too. I am sorry.

[Cremo]

I knew you would have MI. Just feeling sorry for self. I am also a little shocked.

[Lalsy]

Oh Crem, I am so sorry. I hope you can get some proper help with the sugar control, and feel better from the virus soon. What a lot to take on. Glad about dd though

Think drinks trolleys are is about the stage when keeping someone healthy is no longer a consideration and other things become important....so hospices not care or nursing homes.

[Lalsy]

Would anyone needing light relief like to suggest some summer tops for me?

[Blackduck]

Cremo so sorry to hear about eyes etc. doesn't rain but it bloody pours...

Friend of mine had cancer many moons ago and they thought it was curtains - the drinks trolley was wheeled round daily and he was actively encouraged to bunk off down the pub.... (He survived)

Here shopping with ds, but feeling very jaded. Early night I feel.

[Rosebag]

Details Lalsy ....sleeves? of so what type....fave colours? length? boxy or longer length? Nipped in at the waist? Neckline...high, low, 'V', scoop,...?? Linen, cotton? Don't mind?

[Lalsy]

Ooooh umm not sure. Quite simple, v or scoop usually, sleeves wear all sorts I think. I can't remember what I wore before kondoing and losing a few pounds. I don't much like my stomach. You are very kind!

[Rosebag]

Lalsy Have you ever looked at Esprit?

here

like this

I have also done well with great plains

Got these in a few colours last year and they were great and non clingy basic t-shirts

Good natural fabric and pretty shape but pricey landsend

There's your starter for ten...

[Lalsy]

Rose, I luffs you. Thank you so much. Will take to the sofa and browse tonight. My favourite jumper is esprit I think so top marks!

[magimedi]

Cremo - so very sorry to hear that news.

Rose - it's all your fault that I clicked on that Esprit link & have just bought this dress

[bigTillyMint]

Just back from seeing DM. We couldn't actually go into the home as they are on shut - down because of a virus, but we took her out for tea and cake. Very confused, wobbly on feet and said that she wishes she could just die at least 10 times So unfair that we can put pets out of their misery but not humans

[Lalsy]

Oh Tilly .

[Blackduck]

Oh BTM - so sorry, it's horrid isn't it.

[MontserratCaballe]

BTM, I am so sorry. Sending you a huge hug xxxx

[MontserratCaballe]

Crem, I am sorry to read your news. is there no other way of doing the course? Could your work give you some sick leave - or unpaid even- to enable you to take it? If it would make a huge difference would it be worth it? I am so sorry. It sounds hugely upsetting

Love the fashion choices. I will look but not but as I am hoping to kick off a bit of weight as most of my clothes are now trousers of truth. Ouch.

Rose, thank you for your kind words and lovely thoughts. The grief thing is a bugger isn't it, and yours is still so new. Creeps up on you unawares too. Yesterday I was upset when dd1's birthday card came from grandma only, even though my dad hasn't been able to write for some years. Glad that your new class is cheery. How was the concert? I bet you were a very proud mama.

Rudy, sorry things are difficult. Sending you love.

Work acceded to my taking things away demands late last night so I went in today and hid in my office. Taught a bit then pottered around. Same again tomorrow. Baby steps. Thank you for all the support.