The non-sleepers are still not sleeping

[NinaMarieP]

New thread, guys!

WhoAteAllthePercyPigs why is it men lose the ability yo function when ill but it's expected that we'll just carry on?? Hope you're all feeling better soon.

Good to know ds isn't the only very loud screamer/shrieker! At baby groups everyone else's babies are cooing and babbling while ds screams so loudly you can't hear yourself think. I think it's quite cute really but it would be nice if it was just a little bit quieter.
Good start here...ds has been sleeping for 2hours, hoping this carries on! Good luck everyone

My dd is a babbler and screamer. She loves to hear herself haha. At swimming today all the other babies are quietly going around and there's my dd, splashing and kicking and saying YEAH YEAH YEAH !

Meepmoop hope you're ok and you both get some sleep. Don't be too hard on yourself, it's exhausting and you're doing so well.

Thanks guys, it's just so hard when it's night after night. Sadly DS doesn't want to cosleep with me anymore so I'm stuck in the armchair with him until I can put him down in his cot

I've also been using an app to track all his sleep and feeds but I'm going to try and ditch the night time tracking to see if it helps with my sanity.

@meepmoop
I’m so sorry - hope it’s ok. It’s horrible. I’m there now. Had a bad day dummy training/weaning today and it make my heart break. I need sleep so I can function, get better, be a better more patient mum to dd1, and be less pissy with DH
It’s hard

I've been using huckleberry to track sleep. She was waking every hour now it's every 2.5 so progress!

Hope everyone's ok and powering on. I've been off for a day or two so catching up.

I feel like I'm going insane!!! For the past three nights DS has woke up crying at 1030 and literally has the biggest meltdown. Nothing will comfort him or stop him other than taking him downstairs and putting on the tv. I try not to do it because I don't want him screaming and carrying on just for that reason but I'm losing my mind.

DH and I have just had another barney over it cos I raised my voice at DS demanding to know what the hell was wrong with him every effing night. And now I feel awful.

Does anyone else do this when they just can't take anymore?! He's made me feel like I'm not fit to be a mother. Feeling pretty shitty right now 😢

@onone85
I think we have all been there and felt snappy and tired and shouted. I am constantly out of patience with dd1 who is a lovely sweet little toddler who is usually doing nothing more than being a toddler but I’m always nagging and not being the fun mummy I used to before sleep deprivation hit. I’m sure you’re doing a great job so hang in there. It’s very hard to be patient when you’ve been woken up a million times a night...

The sleeping is going backwards every night now. First night was bad, second night she slept through; third night she grumbled but went back to sleep, tonight she woke up properly and I didn’t how to confort her without the boob or dummy once cuddling and shushing failed. Put her down again and she is wide awake and of course, gradually building up from whimpers to full fledged crying as I write this.
I will never get any sleep.

I thought I had my worst night ever on weds but last night was worse. DS did half hour blocks followed by half an hour of screaming all night. I feel so sick

Last night was awful. I broke and brought her in to bed with me at 4:30. I'm so so so tangry.

@onone85 sometimes I think the neighbours must wonder what I'm doing here because I totally lose my shit sometimes and say things like 'what the HELL do you want now!!!!' And growl in frustration.

What is going on with our darling children??!! Love to you all. This thread has totally saved me recently!
Thankyou @frozen @utterly
I feel like I'm not normal and, to be honest, like I should be locked up. I feel mentally exhausted.
He naps in his pushchair in the day because I can't take the screaming if I put him in the cot, and he won't be cuddled to sleep anymore (sad face)!
I think this is why he won't settle all night in his cot but I'm out of ideas.
I return to work on 12 hour shifts tomorrow for the whole weekend and really don't know how I'm going to look after myself, never mind my patients although the break from home and a cup of tea in peace is keeping me going.
AH is still in bed so hasnt spoken to me since last night.

I have said a wide array of things I probably should not have

What do you want???
Why won't you just go to sleep???
To the fuck to sleep!!!
I've had enough of this shit...

Etc etc.

And none of it said in the nurturing loving tone of a mother.

@oneone85 I've done this too, it feels like you're the Absolute Worst Parent just remember you're under huge stress, of course it's gonna get to you sometimes

I got to have a lay in this morning as DH is off for Easter but sadly the in laws from hell are gonna be here soon. I'm sure I'll be told I just need to feed DD more/leave her to cry/give her a drop of whisky before bed

I really do today @BackIntoTheSun, give the whiskey thing a try (you not the baby!) hope the in laws are kind to you!!

Ive reached breaking point. Ugly cried until I've been sick and poured my heart out to DH about every last thing that's worrying me. Anyway he's put the kettle on, got me an Easter egg and took the kids out for an hour.

This week has been an absolute steaming pile of balls. Going back to work after a year/job interviews/sleep deprivation and all the easter chocolate.

Christ.

onone85 sorry you're having such a rough time but glad your dh has given you a bit of time to yourself.

I'm so ridiculously tangry today. The garage are supposed to be getting my car today but are nearly 4 hours late so far...it won't start despite them saying they'd fixed it. Why can't people just do what they say they will?? This means I've been stuck in the house waiting and couldn't go for a walk with my friend and her little girl. Ds is just falling asleep who wants to bet they turn up now?

Argh DD wouldn't go for a nap (again). She pulls my hair and fights every time I ended up shaking and crying and had to get DH to do it

So yesterday DD napped & fed reasonably well but then screamed for 2 hours at bedtime.. finally went down at 9, & then was up 4 times from then til 8.30.. pretty good apart from the screaming.

Today her naps have been pants.. total of an hour, until an hour ago when she decided to fall asleep... and she's still sleeping! This does not bode well for tonight. I may cry along with her :l

FIL had the gall to complain about how badly he sleeps and how we could put DD in their room and it 'wouldn't make a difference' to him, bullshit!! Also he has never helped ith her so he would have no clue what to do

Pass me a bucket of Easter eggs, stat

BackIntoTheSun I hate it when people say I don't sleep so it wouldn't bother me. I had terrible pregnancy insomnia and insomnia throughout my late teens early twenties but I have never experienced exhaustion like it. Being awake is one thing, being awake and looking after a baby that you look after 24/7 is something completely different. I'd definitely start on the easter chocolate!

Here we go again (hopefully better than last night as I can't do it again)

I think DS is constipated which isn't helping so I find myself praying for poop. What has my life become

@MummyCuddlesSolveEverything yeah I had severe insomnia a few years ago (and still struggle now when I'm not being forcibly kept awake) but it's not the same as being exhausted and trying to stop a tiny person screaming while also trying to stop yourself from screaming. Ugh

Sending you all strength and Easter chocolate

I've discovered if I go up into our room, close the shutters and feed/nap DS is happy to do this also.

It's lovely snuggling/napping, do you think I'm making a rod for my own back?

DS is 8 weeks on Sat, but it allows me to have a bit of shut eye!!!

Also no nap routine yet... or any routine for that matter.
I have introduced a 7pm bath time, but then end up taking him down with us in his pj's so we can have dinner etc.

I feel like I'm massively winging it still.