Evening everyone.... I've not been positing very much as ironically I've just been too tired but I've been reading avidly.
DS is five weeks tomorrow and this week long fussy stretch is showing no signs of calming. Had a long phone chat with a lovely HV yesterday who thinks he's got himself overstimulated and over tired after two separate weeks in hospital with me. I think she may be right as he's just fighting sleep and naps, waking every hour during the night and feeding like mad.
I've been really struggling to cope as I'm still feeling very poorly with anemia and low BP after all the hemorrhage's. Feel like I've completely let DS down. DH has been away with work since new years day but won't help at night when he is home (he's moved into the spare room in the attic so can't hear how much we are up). It's so hard on my own. My MIL has been here the last few days and without her I'd not have eaten nor had any clean clothes but it means I've not slept during the day when DS has napped as she's been wanting help with doing / finding stuff in the house. I've got a visit from the HV tomorrow to check DS as there is concern that the PPH'S could have affected my milk, I really hope not. Unfortunately it's not the lovely lady who I spoke to on the phone but the rather grumpy, cold woman I've met previously!
If anyone wants a giggle I've attached a screen shot of DS's feeding over the last week....... its been pretty non stop.
Sorry for the woe is me post just feeling really sad as most of my mum friends with similar age babies are all recovered from their births and getting into their own little routines. We have a whatsapp group which is full of trips out and baby groups and I'm stuck here feeling like crap and desparately worried I'm letting DS down giving him such a rubbish start.
Fingers crossed for more than an hour stretch tonight and I'm sure I'll feel like a new woman tomorrow. DS is currently spark out next to me so I'm going to attempt to transfer him into the next to me and close my eyes!