Guilt Free Railing 6

[WouldBeGood]

When will the railing end?!

As was pointed out to me the other day, it’s not moaning, it’s guilt free railing 😃 @runningpink

This is just the place for it @runningpink

What area are you in?

I'm actually feeling worse since restrictions were lifted, I've not seen a single friend yet 🙁

Forgot to answer about the GP. I didn’t end up talking to counsellor about that the other week, just ran out of time. And she gave me some things to do which I thought would be good and might help.

Had another session on Monday and was feeling a little better but now this has knocked me again.
Iv realised today that I may feel ok on the surface/put on a front but below that I’m absolute mess which isn’t right.
So I plan to speak to counsellor next time as I think I really do need more help.

I’m glad I’m not the only one who is feeling worse.
I did escape and meet friends last weekend but I didn’t feel any better for it. I even got a hug and felt nothing sadly

I just really miss my friend I guess.

I am in the borders @dancemom

I think there can be a crash @runningpink after doing something nice, then the “new normal” hits you more, if that makes sense.

The borders is lovely. I drove up through there the other weekend for the first time in years.

@runningpink not near me I'm afraid sorry 🙁

That’s a shame @dancemom

I think I just need a serious chat with my friend and get reassurance or told to bugger off then at least I would know where I stand

Re the 'non-exam' exams, they are bloody exams. They have been written by the SQA (they would 'prefer' that schools use their papers), the marking schemes were written by the SQA, they are to be administered under 'exam' conditions, with the entire cohort sitting the paper at the whole time... the only difference is that the marking workload has been passed on to classroom teachers and they don't have to sit all the elements on the same day.

I have asked for help, could be tomorrow evening before I get a response but hoping it will be sooner

Hope it's not too long for you @runningpink

Have you spoken to your friend yet?

My tummy is churning away. I hope I’m seen as priority which I appreciate is really selfish of me

No not yet @titsintiers and I fear I won’t get the opportunity too anytime soon now as she will be busy with work and other stuff.

Think once iv spoken to the doctor I will then message her to say I really need to speak to her and hopefully can sort something out though

I feel forgotten about by my friends too. I don't even get a text from one anymore, the other does text, but we never meet up yet she has time for other friends. So I totally get the insecurity feeling.

@ScotlandUnited I'm exactly like that too, I messaged one friend three weeks ago to ask for a walk or a garden meet, she didn't reply. I asked on a group chat of 3 friends about going for lunch or dinner, no one replied. I'm so hurt that none of them can even think that as a single parent I might be lonely and reaching out to them for company

Another friend messaged a few days ago and my heart leapt when I got the notification but then I read the message and she only wanted professional advice. I replied with the advice and she said thanks and that was it. Not even a how are you doing or anything. My aunt did exactly the same this week, a message for professional advice and a thanks after, didn't even ask after me.

I'm so hurt by it all. I know people all have things going on but I feel very let down by these people I considered my best friends a year ago.

it is very difficult times.
I have been very lucky and have great friends.

Arranged to meet 2 of my closest friends on Sunday as we were allowed out of our council area.Was so looking forward to it, but woke up at 4 in the morning feeling realy anxious,and for a few hours after the meeting kept running through all the conversations in my head.

The actual time we spent together was lovely.!
Its just so weird being with others again.It will all get better,

I am at least still seeing my friend it just isn’t as often as we used too and I miss her and fear she won’t want to stay friends particularly as I’m so miserable just now

I’m so sorry to hear you friends haven’t been making time for you both.

I genuinely think my friend doesn’t ‘get it’ when I say how awful and lonely it is being on my own this past year.
She just says ooh I’d love the peace and quiet and house to myself.

@runningpink hang in there. Rail away with us.

I’m another lacking friends. I’m quite new here, and all my new acquaintances are very scared of Covid/the rules. Even one I really like won’t even meet in the garden. I find I don’t have much to say so texts have waned. She only lives a two minute walk away! I’m happy to meet you for lunch as an excuse to get out on a drive 😃

@Haudyourwheesht and all the others affected by the non exam exams it sounds just awful. What a shambles.

The doctor called me, actually feel like a bit of a weight off my shoulders.
Not sure i managed to portray or tell her everything I was feeling but guess that’s hard on a brief phone call.

I did explain that I have tried/do other things to help my mood but it’s just not enough anymore

She has prescribed some medication which I can collect this afternoon and start this evening

Oh that’s great @runningpink. So pleased you got some help 💐

Well done @runningpink I'm sure that wasn't easy

It wasn’t easy and I do feel like a failure that iv had to resort to this.
But I also know I can’t continue feeling the way I am as it’s just going to get worse not better.
I just want to feel like me again and if I can even feel a little bit of happiness again that would be a bonus.

Definitely not failure, you're being proactive and taking steps to help yourself, I'm full of admiration 👏🏼

@runningpink if you’re a failure that goes for loads of us on this thread!

@runningpink

It wasn’t easy and I do feel like a failure that iv had to resort to this. But I also know I can’t continue feeling the way I am as it’s just going to get worse not better. I just want to feel like me again and if I can even feel a little bit of happiness again that would be a bonus.

running I felt exactly like you a month ago and felt completely broken. I've not been offered or taken medication as I think I just needed time away from work to get myself on an even keel so was signed off for a month. I've just been signed off for another month but I am starting to feel faint shoots of improvement. Contacting the GP was hard, i could barely speak for crying but he was lovely and I'm glad I called.

It is hard and you feel shit, then you feel guilty, then shit again, and like a failure etc etc. but you can do this, I'm sure in a few weeks with the medication you'll feel more positive about life. Restrictions will be a bit easier hopefully and folk with family will have caught up and have more time for friends again.

Not telling you not to moan or rail as that's exactly what we are all here for. Just hoping that my experience makes you feel less alone.

Thanks @RedactedTaeFeck that’s good to read your experience and I hope you continue too feel improvements

@WouldBeGood and @dancemom I guess the failure part is that iv allowed myself to reach this point in the first place.

But actually now that you have pointed that out at least iv taken steps to get better that actually makes me feel like less of a failure.

Thank you all who have listened and offered kind words and advice and not judged me 💐

Running sending you a big hug. I'm sure your friend doesn't want to abandon you they are maybe just struggling with time.

Is there any running groups that you could join?