Guilt Free Railing 2

[WouldBeGood]

New thread, imaginatively titled.

I guess I base a lot of my self worth in being good at my job and being strong, now I feel I am neither of those things so what's left?

I couldn’t leave this without comment. You’re a person of worth in your own right, in the very human struggle to cope with adapting to a lifestyle than just 18 months ago would have been unimaginable. We all have our limits and maybe you’ve reached yours after 50 weeks of abnormal living.

Fess up at work if you think it might give some accountability - take your weeks leave and if you’re no better take some sick leave. In terms of strength, it’s incredibly strong to recognise when you need help, or to take a step back. If your company provides actual counselling (as opposed to a one off helpline) it’s worth trying - they’re often specialists in workplace stress.

In any event, take care of yourself as best you can

If anyone is in or near Glasgow I can heartily record Santa Lucia for a cook at home meal.. amazing.

@WaxOnFeckOff really sorry to hear you're struggling. Agree with saying to your old boss about it, sometimes getting a different viewpoint can make a huge difference. No shame at all in getting signed off though, sometimes we all need a break.
@Groovee hope your dh is OK, if in doubt phone NHS24 for advice. Does he have a temperature? Cold hands or feet?

@Sootess

I've learned a new term tonight.

Resilience wanker🤣

Off to find somewhere I can use it....

Definitely a contender for the next thread

@NearWildHeaven

Absolutely

Hope you don't mind me popping in again from way down in Englandshire, but thought you might like this, as your Devi S gets a mention...

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Railing against resilience wankers

Railing against resilience wankers

Urgh I had another terrible nights sleep. We're going on a (small) hill walk today.... can't wait.

Oooh shouldistop hope for a change in the sleep soon, so hard to drag yourself around.

wouldbegood I’m just outside Glasgow but I’m not allowed to fucking travel to get the delicious food you have recommended.

DH has decided we are eating healthier. He does this often but during lockdown it’s torture. He has a point because our diet is pretty shit but I’m not going to admit that to him. We’re getting a chippy tonight then getting on the healthier eating tomorrow.

Giving hugs to all who need them.

@DeepfriedPizza

wouldbegood I’m just outside Glasgow but I’m not allowed to fucking travel to get the delicious food you have recommended.

DH has decided we are eating healthier. He does this often but during lockdown it’s torture. He has a point because our diet is pretty shit but I’m not going to admit that to him. We’re getting a chippy tonight then getting on the healthier eating tomorrow.

Giving hugs to all who need them.

I am watching tv where she has just tucked into a rather lovely fish and chips. It looked amazing!

So funny thanks for that marching frogs

“ I have built a media career on this. I was going to write a book “

And if anyone is in Edinburgh I can recommend Piccolino for amazing Italian food

And I'm also off to use the term 'resilience wanker' freely

I've taken Dh to be tested. I don't think it's Covid but at least we can tell the dr that! I think he needs to go back to bed.

@Groovee missed that MrGroovee was unwell. Hope he gets sorted out soon. And that you’re ok

Late to the party, but just wanted to sat that I'm sorry to hear you're struggling @WaxOnFeckOff, and agree with others that you should confide in someone about it and maybe get some help with the project. I suspect you might find that once you start opening up, others share their mental health difficulties too. Without being too outing, I work in a specialised role with many people relying on me, and I have never been furloughed despite having two young children and home schooling to do. From the outside I probably look like someone who has it all together, but really I'm dealing with crippling health anxiety. Something in my mind has just kind of snapped. I have been checked out by a Dr and was fine (except for some pulled muscles) and the pain has subsided just as she said it would, but still every day I'm examining every little sensation in my body and panicking that it's cancer. The fact that cancer is the one thing I know its not doesn't seem to matter, I can't dig the thought put of my mind and can't talk to anyone either. The point of this oversharing is that there are probably lots of otherwise very resilient people cracking under the weight of the pandemic and/or restrictions.

Hope Mr Groovee feels better @Groovee.

@Y0uCann0tBeSer10us that is a horrible intrusive thought pattern, how awful for you. You're so right that you can't tell from the outside who is struggling.

Blue sky today, birds twittering - here's to an end to this lockdown winter soon. And thank goodness the nurseries and early years are back tomorrow.

My mental health is struggling too.

I start a new job on Monday but I can't get excited about it. It will be WFH but that could obviously change. I had such a horrible experience with my previous employer that I don't ever want to go back to an office environment and ideally want to WFH forever so I listen to each briefing in dread that WFH will end.

And I'm vulnerable so that's another reason I fear restrictions being lifted because I fear going anywhere.

And I struggle with face masks and social distancing due to many disabilities so that's another reason for wanting to keep WFH - a workplace with those rules would just be a nightmare.

And I'm lonely. Lockdown has made me realise how few friends I have. I was trying to build my social life by going to gym classes and I was really enjoying them and getting to know folk and the instructor was really good wit my disabilities then gyms were closed.

And I'm fatter as a result.

So yeah, I'm really struggling. I have mixed feelings about lockdown. Some aspects I like, some I don't. Hugs to everyone else feeling down x

fuck it. I'm going to make a hot choc.

Diet can start again tomorrow.

Sorry to hear from those of you who are struggling I agree that talking to someone in real life is the best thing you can do.

@jabbathebutt I’m in the same boat with trying to make friends and the gym thing. It’s rubbish. 💐

It must be hard to have mixed feelings about gfs lockdown stuff too. At least I’m clear that I want out!! Not that that helps much!

I’m starting 16:8 tomorrow as I must do something about fatness.

It us exciting to be starting a new job.. keep us posted.

Just catching up on the thread. So sorry to hear you’re struggling @WaxOnFeckOff im finding it so hard to stay motivated and get anything done at work. Even something as silly as watching a tv show I can’t concentrate and drift off to go on my phone etc. Hope your boss will be supportive, when someone said at work on the team call they were struggling with motivation almost the whole team agreed so maybe people just don’t want to say. Also sorry to read this @Y0uCann0tBeSer10us there is just so little escape from intrusive thoughts no distractions just the same day over and over again

@jabbathebutt I’m a bit the same. People keep saying you can meet one person for a walk, and quite often I just think I have no one I can even ask. I then get in my head right I must do something about this and remember oh yeah I can’t no avenues to meet any friends at all