Well done Tea. You say you wanted it to be HIS decision so you would not be blamed.
Well iit Is his decision isn't it. HE decided to have an affair not you and he wants to have his cake and eat it. Either that or he's too much of a chicken (it being Easter) to tell you he's chosen her.
He's a low down coward. A quitter and desserter (like mine) and he dosen't deserve you.
No one has grounds to blame you for anything so don't worry about that.
Also it's much better in every way for you to be the petitioner in the divorce. It means that with the help of your sol you "lead" it so to speak.
Your H knows that if he was the petitioner that then he'd look very shabby in deed.
It sounds harsh but he might have been waiting for you to do this.
I hope your sol is good.
You need to be strong and gain confidence and self esteem and self worth because it's an emotional road, well travelled, but you need to get away from him as he really is treating you like sh*t because you've been letting him. (I know that's hard to hear).
Well done for taking the first step to eventual relief and contentment.
As my sol said to me a few weeks ago "you need to get your head out of the sand"
She was strict with me and I'm so glad
As it gave me the strength to move forward with the div. It's a word which is so alien to me as he always was the love of my life and I'll never really get over him, but I'm learning to move on and to see him as part of my past, and the bad days are getting less frequent.