Never 😭 9 prior sexual partners, which were all total blah encounters, compromising:
virgin, virgin, selfish (didn’t really move much), inexperienced, micropenis (also then came out as gay a few months after!!!), ED (to the point it didn’t really count at all!!), inexperienced, ED, micropenis (but also inexperienced).
And then I married someone inexperienced, who came with a whole load of emotional baggage, had zero sex drive, is either asexual or closet gay, as well as a total pessimist in life generally. We never should have married. When I was lovely/young/slim, he didn’t want sex because he was tired or “felt fat himself” (he wasn’t). Then for a few years I comfort ate because of feeling totally undesirable and then he told me that I was the fat one he “didn’t find attractive”. He actually signed me up for WW 😂 It took a couple of years to shed a few stone of fat, but also 13st of him!!
I’d love to have mind blowing sex just once in my life. After all of the above though, I just don’t think I can be bothered. I don’t have the time or energy to invest in having rubbish sex.