Do you want us to keep talking to you, or would you rather we didn't? Because you are free to stop reading. But you keep reading because where you are right now is so bad.
If you don't leave now, you won't leave until next time. Or the time after that. And each time he'll get a little more physical, a little more self righteous in his anger.
There is no point in trying to get us to stop giving you a hard time, because that's not what we're doing. We're trying to show you, through numbers of posts, through links, and personal experiences, that your not unusual, that you are not unique, that we truly KNOW and have been in your position.
Being a young first time mum means you're in an excellent position to find a better life.
Try doing all this again after 2, 3 children, when they're a bit older, when you're older, when he's starting breaking bones, or yelling at the children, but you've been in it so long, you cannot see a way out.
That's the thing. There is never a way out. Apart from putting one foot in front of the other, until you get somewhere else.
And somewhere else won't be a rose-covered cottage, with a white fence, and a rainbow over the roof. But you'll be safe. Your child will be safe.
You can't start making a better life, until you're safe.