I have always found it hard to control how much I drink. I do not drink often but when I do I almost always go over the top, end up throwing up and sleeping on my friends sofas because I'm too drunk to come home. On occasion when I have come home, I have woken up my partner and have took out all my insecuries about our relationship on him. He gets very upset about this and feels very anxious when I go out to drink because he doesn't know what will happen when I do. I have tried controlling how much alcohol I drink and sometimes I am able to do it but then the next time I go out after that, I drink too much again. The last straw for him was the last time I got drunk and messaged him about my insecuries about the relationship, such as 'I don't know where this relationship is going' ect. He now does not want me to drink at all, whereas I want to really try and control my drinking again, but he does not trust I can do it because of past experiences. What do you think I should do? Thank you.