DH is a right pain in the arse. Sometimes v kind but sometimes mean, neurotic, selfish, lazy. Etc
I have posted a few times about awful things he's said and always got LTB. And then I feel all determined and then I see him put our DC to bed so sweetly or he cooks a lovely dinner to cheer me up and I just think "what was I thinking"
His latest obsession is a hatred for our house. We bought it as our first house together during lockdown. The whole deposit is mine (sizeable as had savings plus inheritance from relative). I love the house. Near nursery. Big enough for DC to run around. And we have only been here a year
But DH hates it. Shouting fights about it. I have actually said "let's move" but he's lazy and incapable of doing stuff so nothing ever happens and he just complains
He promises he will better if we move. I would move to save the marriage and make him happier. He does absolutely hate it, the location, near a motorway etc. And now I pick up on all that stuff too and obviously marriage more important than a house
But I've got a sinking gut feeling ill regret it. That I'll end up living somewhere I don't like, spending money we can't afford, and I'll still want to leave him.
I'm so scared of losing our DC. They're only tiny. Both boys. Both adore their dad. He will tell them I've ruined their lives/family etc.