i don`t think i can take this much longer

[mummyofaprincess]

People might know my story from my other thread on here,

I found out my partner was cheating on me via a message on his phone form OW.

He left me, DD (3) and my 6 month bump.

Well i wanted to try he never even gave us chance he looked me in my eyes and said he loved her and wanted her, hes 26 shes 17.

He had brought her back to our place, he admitted this about 2 weeks ago now.

Well now ive found pictures of them together and its really cut me up, i cant believe it.

He looks so happy

How could he do this to me, we was together 7 years.

If it wasnt for my dcs then i dont know what i would do, i really hate myself, i keep asking myself why me?, it doesnt help that she`s younger and much better looking, thinner got a job with my xp etc

Why would she want my xp when she can have the pick of the croud?

Will this get any easier, its only been just over 5 weeks but i`ve come along way since then, but this has made me step back like 10 thousand steps

Hey ginnedup

I do hope its looking up, i think thats what we need right now

I hope everythings ok with you x

I'm glad to see you guys are feeling better today.

Nothing like a bit of sunlight to make everything seem OK again.

Well xp is coming to see DD tomorrow and he said he will stop for a few hours, but i do have this feeling that he will go after a couple of hours!

I think my life is getting a tiny bit better by the day, just hope xp doesn`t knock me back a few steps again.

Like i`ve said though theres not much more he can do now that will suprise me lol

Hey AMR

When DD came out of nursery again today she said again "ive lost my daddy" its so heart breaking to hear that

Aw too bad christmas is over. I found a nice present for your ex!

www.cafepress.com/buy/sick+bastard/-/pv_design_details/pg_1/id_19771598/opt_/fpt_/c_666/

might get him one for his birthday though

I got BIL and is wench a lovely christmas present from that site

lol not going to ask what but i can think of a few things

I was just talking to one of his oldest mates and he said he can`t believe he left his family for a tart

Here's hoping it all went well today.

Hi MOAP. How are you today?
x

Its hasn`t he came at 4 and went at 6

I asked him if he wanted to be at the birth of his child as it will all be planned, he said no as im not with you anymore and you will want someone to hold your hand so ill wait outside

What do i say to that, i now know he doesnt want this child at all and i wished he would just say, im in tears right now and i cant understand why he wouldnt want to be there when our child is born.

I know i should have known better but he was there with DD so i thought he might want to eb there for LO

He also said he doesn`t know his next day off and he will text or call to let me know

Oh sweetheart what a heartless piece of shit he is.

Is there someone who can be with you for the birth?
I wonder if it is really what he wants or if his trollop is pulling the strings.

Either way he should be bloody greatful that you will let him have anything to do with the children.

Come on you can't let this get you down, your doing well.

Anyway do you want your lovely baby to see his ugly mug as soon as it pops out .

I really don`t if theres anyone i can take with me.

Why would it matter about us not being in a relationship anymore, this child is still his.

If he doesnt want to be in the room the day of my c/s then i dont want him there at all

Are there any mumsnetters who could help you out?
Where abouts are you?

im in the west midlands, i think i need to speak to my family about this but i feel like sh1t right now, i know he doesnt want this child i just wished he had the balls to say so

Thanks Kimi

Speak to your family and friends. I am sure they will help you out. If not let us know.

MOAP you want this child, and you will love this child and you will raise both your children well.
They are lucky to have a wonderful, strong role model like you.

Please don't let him make you feel this way, you know you are better then him and his plaything.

I dont know why i was so upset, i knew deep down in my heart he didnt want this child, but theres also something inside me saying that this has got something to do with her.

I also think if he was there he would have feelings for me and LO, i think he still loves me aswell, theres something not right in all this, just can`t put my finger on it

I would think she is jealous of your DD and the impending little one.

She is still little more then a child herself.

I am sure he is trying to put a barrier between you, DD and LO, how could anyone not want their own child.

You are going to be strong and you are going to do fine, and when he comes crawling back you can show him the door and tell him not to let it hit his arse on the way out.

I would make a bet that this definitely has something to do with that little trollopskankwhorebitchfaceslut.

I bet she is jealous and cannot stand the idea of his "holding your hand".

I think you are probably correct when you say "something just isn't right". Always follow your intuition.

She really sounds like a piece of work and he sounds totally weak.

kimi

He also said he wants to start taking DD to his now and he said he will leave it with me, but he knows the answer already!

I think she has got something to do with all this, and i find it so sad to be honest, his loss

AMR trollopskankwhorebitchfaceslut. lol