So my husband has spent since Thursday giving me the silent treatment being extremely nasty when he has spoken and decided that today is the day hes leaving me there is no marriage so save blah this all started because I was in to much pain and too tired to make his tea we have a 1 and a half year old who is very active and literally never stops until he goes to bed and I have severe osteoarthritis in my knee which is causing me serious pain at the minute so our house is definitely not any where near as clean as it should be, when I ask him for a little help even just moving his own stuff all i get is he works all week anyway I feel really really sad for our little boy who is now losing his family and essentially his daddy for a little while until he gets sorted but I'm actually relieved it's over like i feel my life will now get better is this awful?
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And he is getting him every other week except hes brought him home in a state every time hes had him and he does not and up like that at my parents house he was happy enough for them to have him before he decided he was walking out on us so he has no right to take there time away but thanks for your input 
Does co parenting with an arse ever get easier? It's been 3 weeks now and he hasn't stuck to a single arrangement weve had for example he wanted to have him every other week and keeps telling me how he wants to spend every minute possible with his son yet when I asked last night what time he would be picking him up today I got I don't know hopefully in the afternoon I'm going out tonight so not only has he not seen his son for any length of time for 3 weeks he hasn't spent any one on one time with him at all because hes made sure they are around other people, now I had a shit dad that never turned up when he said he would and if he did he would only take my brother because it was a boys thing so maybe clouding my judgment here. I absolutely lost it with him last night it's one thing to treat me like I'm nothing but I won't let him do it to my son I know what his nights out consist off and that's no sleep until 6am drugs etc he won't be in a fit state to look after him today so I've said he isn't having him but apparently I'm I'm unreasonable and he needs a break too from what I don't know I've said he can have one more chance at being consistent with his son and then I will be stopping access until we have been to court and have something in writing my heart is breaking for my beautiful little boy and the guilt I feel giving him a dad who only cares about him self is tearing me apart 
I will absolutely use his drug use in court and he knows that too, honestly it wasn't even I'll definitely pick him up in the afternoon it was let me see how im feeling he also brought up my one night out forgetting to remember he brought him home 6 hours early the day after and I I can't go out unless he is at my mums because he wont settle at his house and brings him home at a ridiculous time Friday he didn't settle to sleep properly until 2 am I was exhausted yesterday I'm always the one left to deal with the fall out, and that's what I said to him I don't change his arrangements and I've had to be mum when I'm falling apart hurt angry upset he doesn't get to play his games with my baby
I have said a few times set times but I always fall soft when he asks to see him and I've tried and tired to get him to go through my mum and dad but he just wont, I think my fear of my son growing up without a dad is what's making me soft I just don't know what to do for the best
@RandomMess is bang on as usual.
You need to become super firm.
Your child will be better off without any contact than to spend his childhood feeling dismissed and disregarded by a father who is a druggie who doesn't give a shit.
I think I will block him until it's his contact time because while I stayed strong for some reason I felt really guilty for ignoring him and not letting him come 
he is meant to have him for the day tomorrow and I start a new job tonight so my parents are having him but they go away for the weekend tomorrow morning so I will have to be the one to sort contact but after tomorrow it will be through my mum only
OP,
You are doing so well.
You being well is the best thing for your son, so keep reminding yourself of that.
If blocking between his days gives you some peace, absolutely do it.
Keep posting, we are here for you.
Good luck with your job.
Your son is so lucky to have one responsible parent who knows how important routine is.
Routine is what helps establish security in babies and young children in their little lives.
Keep going.
Your strength and conviction will be very attractive.
Take your time to heal and grow stronger.
Reflect on what you would have done differently and any red flags that you ignored.
Learn from this experience and gain strength from it, so that you never allow anyone so awful into your life again.
You deserve the best, make sure you reflect on this.
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Thank you guys I have kept a record of all of it its been a peaceful week strictly no contact unless about access and time etc he has managed to stick to times today we will see how tomorrow goes but he's actually doing me a favour tomorrow which is a first hopefully he sticks to it, hes had a rough day with a grumpy teething baby today im just praying he settles for my parents tonight because he comes back very unsettled after contact I think he feels abandoned every time his dad leaves but hopefully it will get better
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