it's the way he's been all along.
he won't commit or give me anything back. won't give me anything I need.
but when it's an important occasion or something he'll find difficult, he wants me to be with him. because he knows I am always positive and always find ways of making him feel better about himself and what he's done. I'm the only person in his life who sees the good and the positives in every situation. and I think he needs that from me. in this whole thing I've been the only person who's supported him. everyone else lost all faith in him from the day he walked out just before last christmas.
but I only had the energy to be like that when I still thought we had a chance at saving our marriage. I no longer think we have. that's why I have to stop it now and take control.
it's all for his own benefit. I can finally see through it.
if I thought for one minute we had a chance at saving this marriage then I still wouldn't give up. (you know me by now!) but he has a new girlfriend, who has a child, and that is a VERY clear message to me that it's not the lifestyle and responsibility he can't cope with. he does want all of that. he's lied all along. he does want a relationship. he needs a relationship in order to feel good about himself. he just doesn't want one with ME.
(apart from an ego boost and some support whenever it suits him!)
so I am no longer going to be his security blanket or moral support.
time for him to be on his own! as he's wanted all along!
time for him to realise that little wifey will no longer be waiting in the background ready to take him back when he's had his fun! time to fight back!!
sugar thank you so much for the fantastic reply on fb you're a star. have to go and get ds now but i'll write back later
xx