Rejoining this thread after several years.
On day three after daily drinking for too many years to remember.
I had my last drink on Sunday and had an epiphany. The booze was doing nothing for me but making me ill and miserable.
Bad liver test results and a decline in my mental and physical health led to me seeking help and finding it here.
What amazes me is that, from your profile pics, you just look like every day people. So many of you are just like me. And yet, drink had us all enslaved.
I am not working at the moment and have noticed one major thing - I am sleeping loads! I think I am just exhausted from years of poisoning myself.
I am also eating rather a lot of unhealthy food, but a few weeks of eating rubbish won’t kill me. I am craving carbs and sugar.
I have been exceptionally lucky in that I am not plagued by cravings. Every time I think of booze, I remember how frightened I have been for so, so long.
I was drinking a bottle of strong (13%) wine every night, topped off with two cans of gin and tonic. A total of 77 units per week - five and a half times the recommended limit.
My husband knew about the wine, but I used to hide the cans of gin all over the house - he would always find them and he was so worried about me.
The stuff I drank was horrible, cheap rubbish that tasted foul.
When I went out, pre covid, I always came home very drunk.
I made an idiot of myself too many times - falling over or passing out in public, having to be carried home or just being horribly inappropriate.
My lowest point was passing out in a bar and taking the top half of my clothing off in my “sleep”. I got barred and was so, so ashamed. I also lost my favourite earrings that night.
It has taken three years from the stripping incident for the penny to drop - I can’t ever drink again.
No more hiding drink, no more awful guilt and fear, no more binning my bottles every day so they didn’t collect in the house, no more money wasted.