Please, please, someone talk to me

[KeeOe]

I've posted about my marriage problems and subsequent separation here Today, I feel so, so low. I've been using my workplaces employee assistance line to speak to counsellors, who are good, but seem to have limited time for each call. I feel absolutely desperate. I have very little RL support. I feel worse not better. I cannot see a way through how I'm feeling at the minute. I have never felt so bad. I don't know where to turn.

Here’s some of my faves (with brief descriptions)

The Dropout (about corporate fraud in Silicon Valley - had me hooked)

Serial (true crime US - 3 seasons)

Slow Burn (political scandals - I’ve listened to the Watergate and Clinton scandals)

The Missing Cryptoqueen (this is on BBC Sounds - about a crypto currency fraud - very compelling though)

The Dream (exposé about MLM / pyramid schemes - more interesting than it might sound!)

Jeffery Epstein - Truth & Lies (grim listening in parts but very well produced)

The Immaculate Deception (about a fertility doctor who secretly fathered hundreds of children!)

Some of those might hit the spot, others not, but see how you get on.

Do you have Netflix? If so, The Staircase, Making a Murderer, and The Pharmacist are my top crime picks.

Enjoy 😊

Thank you so much for those @Youngatheart00 thsy will keep and going for ages ❤

You’re very welcome! Off to bed to try and drift off to one now too.

Hi OP, just checking how you are? Hope you are OK? As a fellow greyhound/giant sleeping cat owner I feel a bit of a kinredship towards you and although I haven't posted on your thread before, I've been keeping an eye out. Little bit concerned as you have been quiet so a little thumbs up to say you're managing would be great. All the best x

Hi @Scooby63, I'm actually doing great today! He came to pick up some bits earlier, I looked great and was icy calm with him - not what he was expecting at all. I really feel I've made some progress with how I'm feeling. I'm still sad, but the feeling of despair and utter hopelessness has receded a bit. I've been walking the dogs as much as I can, doing yoga and trying to be kind to myself. I hope today isnt just a blip and that I'm on the road to recovery!

Thank you so much for posting. People laugh when say greys are like giant cats, but until you have one, you dont know how true it is! 😂

Get glammed up and take some selfies, join a dating site.

The attention will make you feel good.

Until stuff opens properly and you can meet
Friends or family for a chat.

If you have time and can afford it get some exercise stuff and do it at home.

Well done you. That's great progress 'banked' - so on a day when you might slip back a little, you have the knowledge and confidence that you can feel strong and cope well.

I care, be kind to yourself and take each day as it comes. Just seen your last post and I’m so glad to see today has been so much better. Such great progress in such a short space of time - you can do this - such determination and strength to get out and about when you are feeling this way. 💐

What a lovely thread. Such a journey you are on and you're being fo strong. Do keep posting it's really so interesting!

I'd really recommend Pilates too for quiet exercise that has a real impact.

Hi OP, I've posted a message to your and a picture that I thought might make you smile. It hasn't turned up here yet but I won't try again incase we end up with two 🙄 so glad you are feeling a bit better today and well done you for being so composed and finding the inner strength to be so, it couldn't have been easy I know. I hope tomorrow is a good day for you too x

Oh and thanks for the update, appreciate it and so glad for you that you are feeling a bit more positive, you're a 💫

Well done for dealing so well with him picking up his stuff - that’s a real triumph.

I work in mental health. It is really common to feel the way that you do but there is always hope and help available. You are not alone, people do care. Please call the Samaritans on 116 123 or see your GP. The Staying Safe website is really good, see www.stayingsafe.net xx

Not feeling quite so brave to today, but my sister is coming over soon, hooray! I just feel so bloody lonely and isolated.

Saw my sister today which was BRILLIANT. Talked a lot of stuff out between us. The hurt is receding, the anger is white hit though. Also tried pilates on the recommendation of a poster upthread, my goodness me, how hard is it?! My muscles shook for an hour afterwards. I'm keeping it up!

Great that you were able to see your sister. Your world is emerging again ☺️ And god, yeah, re Pilates, never has something that looks so gentle hurt so much! Got to be doing good though!

I think I will be feeling it in the morning. Nice bit of yoga stretching only tomorrow for me! I have a thousand and one jobs planned for the weekend. If I get a quarter of them done I'll be a happy woman. I've got rid of all messages etc from him as I was tempted to keep going though them to see when he loved me. Email contact only and I've changed his contact pic to this. Puerile, but made me laugh

I love that Mr Bellend.

Dear God OP I just read your original thread! What a nasty vile abusive +=%{}! I'm not one to swear but all sorts of nasties are coming to mind.

I know it's easier said from the other side but you are SO much better off than with that waste of space.

Things may seem bleak and you may feel you have no one etc but remember this is just a moment. And moments pass. And just because you haven't got a DP right now in this moment doesn't mean everything is over. It's time for you to pick yourself up and look forward to meeting someone genuine and loving and who would never lay a finger on you. Starting a brighter happier more wholesome future.

Keep on doing what you're doing :). You're doing brilliantly.

Well, today's little adventure was going to pick up a tv bench from somewhere I've never been before. A naughty little greyhound has decided to wee all over the one I have and its starting to disintegrate 😖 Its slightly larger than anticipated,but looks good. Going to sand it back and see if itll be ok to wax, if not I'll just bang some chalk paint on.

Also treated to myself to some new shower curtains and bathroom accessories. The shower curtains have flamingos on them and the accessories are all ridiculously pink. My bathroom will be the Vegas of the North! I'm trying to make it 'mine' again.

No pilates or yoga today for me today, I slightly over-did it yesterday I think. Bit of a walk with the dogs will have to suffice.

I love your positivity about making changes to reclaim your home. That’s brilliant Kee

The bathroom accessories sound wonderful - and I’d give the tv stand a paint - it’s really quite soothing doing a bit of upcycling.

I'm thinking paint too, cant see me having the weather to sand it down outside given the current forecasts in my area. I'm trying to have little projects that take my mind off things, plus they look so lovely when they're done. I'm going to go for a bright coral/red on my feature wall (I know what MN thinks of these - no judgements please ) in my living room. It's currently a very grown up navy blue. I feel that if I can rid myself of some of the reminders of him, it will help me move on some in my head. Thank you everyone who still reading my little ramblings. It helps me feel less alone

Lots of lovely sales on right now for bathroom accessories OP!

Coral is très tendance for 2020. Pictures please.