Oh goodness no, that won’t help. How long has that been for you if you don’t mind me asking? Ten years in Feb for me.
Yeah I seriously know how you feel, like as miserable as I am tonight it’s nothing like it was. Just this constant heavy weight of sadness on me. It was like a fog. I remember about a month or so after it happened, my niece made me proper belly laugh but then it almost segued into tears! I held them back cos I was with people but if I’d been alone and just laughing at a film or something, I’d have sobbed. Happened a couple more times after. Emotions are so strange.