Every post from you reminds me of the old powerless Gemma, the pathetic woman who jumped out of her skin with delight and shock every time Mr Ex Dong with Flashing Lights "fought for me". Snort. What I mean by that is, came creeping round with emails and changed numbers trying to find out "how are you".
FFS. Nooooooooo This;
"I was doing okay
And now I have just checked my emails and I have an email from him too!"
Again, not being harsh, keeping it real though, you are still handing him your power. Obviously and naturally the trauma bond is still strong and he has control over your feelings. What do you mean by what do I do now? Of COURSE he is going to try and get a lost target back, and that is ALL we are to these users, targets, objects, items. He KNOWS you are easily conned and wooed, so he is doing what he has ALWAYS done. "Fight" (cough cough) for you, which basically means testing the water until you inevitably crack. And then the cycle of abuse starts again.
You sleep together again. It is so bloody amazing, because you miss him, you miss his big penis with flashing lights that makes the tea and you are are lonely. Dopamine and oxytocin are released in massive amounts, reinforcing the bond with him, the TRAUMA bond. Not a healthy bond. He goes home after he gets his shag and you miss him, he shags some other woman and you notice a strange message on his phone. He shags his ex again and you notice a message. He deletes and denies and still refuses to change his number. You start walking on eggshells. You get upset. He forces you to have sex when you say no. Ermmm.... rape anyone? You end it. He leaves. He waits a few days or a week and texts you and because you are trauma bonded and your brain thinks it needs those chemicals, you take him back.
Wash, rinse, repeat.
Right now I see a woman who is totally out of control. She is powerless. Think of him like Dracula. He clicks his fingers and you allow him to suck more of your blood.
Nope, don't be a doormat, a used object, don't be raped FGS. Reading your other post, it veers on a very thin line of consent. I would say he raped you, and other than the fact that this is not a very nice person to start with, he is a rapist.
Next time your vagina starts to miss him... any part of your body... remember what he did to you when you had thrush recently (other post). He is a cruel bastard.
I have been there chick, I know it feels hard, I still have my ex abuser asking how I am from different numbers. I delete and block. Repeat and repeat. His emails go to Trash. BLOCK HIM. He doesn't care how you are, he cares about his dick.
Now go put the Rocky music on and get a life. One that does not involve him.
Don't even read the emails or texts. They are only bullshit designed to make you take him back.
You are still under Dracula's energy spell. Break it.