Break up support thread 3

[herbsmokedchicken]

We’re all still here...

Really horrible, I have no clue why I thought it, I'd never be able to find out either without looking at his social media which I dont want to do! It's so stupid that that is how it all manifests. Although now you've said that it's got me thinking again, maybe something is up but I can't tell what best not to dwell on it, easier said than done!!

Thanks, It's this afternoon, bricking it!

So frustrating isn’t it?! I’ve got a little of frisson of hope for some reason, I’m not indulging it by daydreaming but I can feel it. So pointless! For a start, when I saw him nearly 2 weeks ago was clear he didn’t regret his decision, even if he does feel sad about it. And he’s leaving in just under two months - even if he did suddenly change his mind, we wouldn’t end up rekindling in any kind of meaningful way. And he doesn’t want to so pointless to even think about what we would do if he came back. Just hard to accept.

And I’m sure you’ll do amazingly!

Good luck with the presentation Jon.
You could get someone else to check his social media.

Thank you, it went ok! No I don't want anyone to check, I'm going to ignore it as I'm pretty sure it was just anxiety about this presentation

Well done!

And yeah prob best to ignore it rather than make it into a big thing.

I def think I’m doing better. Like I still think about it almost all of the time but it’s not all of the time and I don’t have that constant sad, flat feeling. So I’m getting there but tbh reckon I’ll be pretty rubbish next week when it would have been our anniversary

So he showed up and bought me lunch. We had a bit of a cuddle in the back of my car. I said love you and he said it back. Hmmmmmm. Not sure where to go from here - I'll see if I see him out tomorrow at the party. Said he can buy me a drink hahaha

That’s interesting!! I guess best just to take each day as it comes!

Think he's still not interested but if I see him with another girl tomorrow I'll just block him on everything

Yeah good plan

Supposed to be shit weather this weekend, which used to mean holing up in A’s room. Fucking bliss. And instead I’ll be at my house and whilst I am technically an adult and can do as I please, my mum can make things tense if I just do jack shit all weekend...

I miss him so so much. I wanted to kiss him so badly today but didn't - I don't know if I'm imagining the sexual tension or if he felt it too. Hmmm.

Just agreed to babysit in December and even tho that’s nothing to do with A, it kind of hit me like, he’ll be gone by then. He’ll have been gone for a week. He’s fucking leaving.

Nights are starting to get cold and I miss snuggling in bed with him like I’m not going to do that again?? What the fuck???

We haven’t had our normal weekend routine since early July now and I’m kind of used to it but for some reason today I’m really struggling to get my head around the fact that I won’t be going to his tomorrow - I reckon cos the weather has changed quite dramatically this week and all last winter/spring I was with him, so I’m associating the cold weather with him. Cos I really feel weird and head trippy that I’m not going to his tomorrow even tho I haven’t for ages.

How do I stop obsessing about him?
I don't even know if he is shagging the woman but in my mind she's alrady pregnant.
Aaaargh!

I wish I knew how!

Need a hug

SAME
Just had a massive crying session, feeling slightly better now.

I feel so so weird

I’m not surprised, must have been a weird lunchtime even if it was nice

Hugs herbs

Feel like he wants me there but doesn't actually want me. I love him so so much i wish we could reverse this.

Crying myself to sleep tonight. Too much on my plate

@Jonsnowsghost I would defo have checked the social media photos too, dont feel bad! I've taken myself off facebook but once a week or so I let myself check

@TinselAndKnickers that is some big news! What do you plan to do next? It's so tricky...too loving and forward and he may find it too much but too cold and he may find it too little...sounds like you got the balance right, a cuddle but no kiss

@rowlett I'd see if you can find a pic of his sister and then ask her. I'm sure she wouldn't mind if you're just asking that hes ok...

@herbsmokedchicken I hope you can find some fun stuff to do at the weekend to distract you...I'm planning cinema with a friend.

I've been distracting myself with work for a few days. His communication is getting less and less now they are living and working so closely, I dont message him now either out of respect. He sent me an email yesterday saying he will always love me (great) but he needs to see if he can work things out with his ex (crap). I haven't replied. I'm starting to feel better now, getting used to him gone and started seeing someone else. It's not the same as him, I think I will probably never see him again I wonder how long the 'honeymoon' phase lasts before he may regret his decision? A couple of months? I dont hold out much hope but in the back of my mind I wonder if he will ever contact me again.

@TinselAndKnickers oh sorry just seen your last post...I hope you're ok! I was/am the same, I think I love him more than him me and it's so hard, so vulnerable feeling like this