Can anyone explain what I'm looking at?

[HeadLikeSpaghetti]

Hi all. I'm new to mumsnet and was pointed here by a friend.
This could really be something or nothing and I'm so confused. I've been married for years. Really happily, I've never had one issue with him in all the time we've been together. But... on Sunday I was walking past the spare room where his laptop is when I saw him quickly click out of an email account that didn't look like his. When I asked he got all flustered and said of course it was but Ive got a terrible feeling about his reaction.
This morning I still hadn't shaken it so started digging. I put his phone no in various providers and it was linked to gmail. (His isn't gmail). Now this is where it could be nothing. I can also get into this gmail with his other (usual) email. It then gives the option to convert his usual account to gmail. So I'm guessing it may be innocent but could anyone explain the following please

1. He has a few passwords he uses. The one to get into this gmail is different from his email one
2. There is a username that is not mentioned anywhere on his usual account
3. This username with gmail.com on the end is a recognised email address but the same password doesn't work with it
4. There are options to look at internet history and location history (this one says paused) but I can't seem to look at anything.

I'm just so confused with what I'm looking at. I've always trusted him and feel bad for even writing this but then keep thinking what if?
I know not all perfect husbands are what they seem!

OP just wondering if you are ok and getting continued support before you tell your DCs

Hi @HeadLikeSpaghetti. Hope you had a better weekend & did some nice things with your girls. How are you holding up this week? X

Just read the thread. I hope you are doing well OP! You did so well for holding your cool while getting things together. I am not sure I could do that without kicking him where it hurts🤬

Please come updates us and tell us how you are💐

Hello OP how are you holding up?

Hi OP, have been thinking about you. Just checking in to see how you’re doing? x

Hi OP how's things with you? x

Hello all. I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while and thank you for thinking of me. Especially the lovely pm I received.
We sat down and told the girls we were separating and as expected they were blindsided. They are so upset.
I have been a mess since. I’ve just shit myself away, I didn’t want to discuss it with anyone. I feel embarrassed my husband has done this.
I have decided that I am definitely divorcing him. I will be posting in the divorce section shortly as I really haven’t got a clue how it works. Thanks again for all of your support. I’m feeling a bit stronger now I have made this decision. X

• shut myself away, not shit myself!!!!

I'm glad you're feeling a bit stronger OP, I hope you manage to keep going for you and your girls! You guys deserve so much better!

Well done and best wishes xxx

I feel embarrassed my husband has done this
WTF do we always feel like this?
YOU have nothing to be embarrassed about OP.
Nothing at all.
You have done nothing wrong.
Please reach out for support.
Take it from us, you will need it.
Your friends and family will be your lifeline right now.
Don't keep his dirty secret.
Tell the world (or just people you trust) and get the support you need and absolutely deserve.

Glad you are confident with your decision and have managed to move things forward. Keep going

Glad you are decided - wishing you and your girls all the very best

How are things @HeadLikeSpaghetti? Hope it’s all calmed down a bit in your world. X

I know this thread is a bit old now but @HeadLikeSpaghetti I just wondered how you were doing

I'm sorry you're going through this, OP.

A word of advice: keep your cards close to your chest. And by that I mean do not tell all and sundry about what he's done, no matter how angry you are. Get it out of your system on here.

I say this because you sound like you still love him. Right now, you want to be as far away from him as possible, but you don't know how you're going to feel later on down the line. Logic would be that you'd never get back with him, but life doesn't work out like that.

I shamed my ex due to a porn addiction and now I really wished I hadn't. I was hurt and angry. I hated him. I also loved him. It was a crap time but the dust has now settled and now I have doubts about leaving him. I wish I hadn't have told so many people about what he'd done, for many reasons. ❤