Break up support thread 2

[Jonsnowsghost]

Carrying on the supportive previous thread that ran out of space!
@herbsmokedchicken definitely that, although I wouldn't as I'm not a cheat....

I don't know why I'm having such a hard time accepting it. It feels like a 20 year marriage has gone down the pan, which wasnt the case at all! But we were just like we had been, and he didn't want that, once the honeymoon period was over he couldn't cope. I think it's the feeling of being replaced that's getting to me. You are right, he doesn't miss me or care about my feelings because he doesn't have to as he has someone else where he can just feel happy and block out the other guilty feelings.
He's not blocked but is muted/unfollowed so I dont see any of his posts or anything.

I totally agree with the replace feeling, but we were to good for them. My blood is boiling when I think about what he did to me, I personally would of appreciated the honesty from him, rather than the bullshit and lies.

I've typed out a draft in my notes app about how I'm feeling, editing it along as I go. I've made a deal with myself that if I still feel the same in 2 weeks time, I'll just send it because I have nothing to lose.

Feel so shit that I saw a glimpse of him yesterday

Tinsel I've done that before, it makes me feel worse as he either doesnt respond or just said "take care, sorry for everything I did" when I've typed up this long heartfelt passage 😅 you are right, there's nothing to lose but it won't make you feel better

I felt better for sending a letter to my ex. I was feeling really bitter about things he said. He responded by saying he was truly sorry for everything he did to hurt my feelings and that he genuinely loved me. I believe all of that but he crossed some boundaries and there is no going back.

I think I'm struggling because I'm actually a decent person and can't even try to put myself in his position as I never would do anything like that, so I cant understand it and can't work it out! I want to be fine, I still miss him obviously but I do. And I want him to be as hurt as I did so hopefully one day it'll all come crashing down around him and I will not even know!

It's not a note begging or anything it's honestly just a friendly text even agreeing with the break up! I probably will never send it but I'll see how I feel. A lot can happen between then and now.

I truly wish him all the best, I know he loves me and I wish I didn't hurt him so much. It's horrible struggling with mental health and trying to love somebody. Then again, he put me through a lot. This space will be good whatever happens.

Was doing really well but I’ve suddenly just crashed. We are at a chain restaurant but it’s one we don’t have at home and one we went to on our holiday so it’s made me feel shit. Also tired from the long weekend, looking forward to getting home. Prob break my streak and have a good cry but think I’ll feel better for it.

I have to stop thinking about how "happy" etc he is now as I can't possibly know. I know he's posting instagram stories (if he views mine i can see the circle round his picture) and not so much on his profile, probably because he's still feeling insecure about it and trying to proving a point about how much "fun" he's having (although I dont actually know the content!) But again, social media doesnt show the true picture! So I have to stop thinking about them as I literally can't know what is going on.

Yeah it’s horrible eh just wondering what they are doing and how can they possibly be happy without us when we are so miserable without them.

I hate the way it comes in waves.. One minute I'm preparing a list of goals for my new life. The next I'm just a mess thinking about how hard it is and how I can't imagine life without him.. It sucks

Airport home gonna be sad cos 1. 5 weeks today since he picked me up from the airport then broke up with me and 2. If we were still together, I prob would have gone to his once I got home since we wouldn’t have seen each other all weekend, spent the bank holiday Monday together.

Kumali its horrible isnt it :( you can be fine one minute then the next really low. We would have spent the whole bank holiday together plus reading festival on friday and it's just really got me down

Yeah Kumali I try to imagine moving on and meeting someone new and just end up imagining...him. Cos he’s still the only one I want

Walking out the airport hurt as much as I expected. Couldn’t help but flashback to five weeks ago today when he picked me up from the airport and I was so excited to see him, sure it would put my mind at rest that the last week I’d just been paranoid thinking something was wrong and instead it turned out I was right fuck I miss him

Really missing him too, know how you feel.

@Mumcomehere can I ask how you got rid on what's app? I've blocked but can't get his face off there! Xx

Lost 3kg in a week and a half 🎉 he was always saying I should lose weight so thank you, asshat, for kickstarting it. Shame you won't get to reap the benefits. I didn't want to try to lose weight until after baby #2 but that won't happen now so off the weight goes!

Had a nice day with DS today, took him for a picnic on the beach then went for a long walk which made me feel better. It's quite hard being in the flat on my own. It was supposed to be our home but now it's just mine and DS's.

Sorry it's not been a good day for most of you ladies, keep your chins up. We can do this!!

I weighed myself today for the first time in ages and I lost a stone and a half in 9 weeks which isn't good as I am tiny (this is absolutely not a brag as I look like a skeleton at the moment) but luckily my appetite is coming back.
How can I miss someone who was so awful :(

@Jonsnowsghost oh you poor thing, I'm so glad your appetite is coming back. I put on 6kg of baby weight so have halved that 🎉

Soon you'll wake up and realise that your life is much better without him. Just keep plodding along until that day

Mine is def coming back! But sounds like you def need to get your eating back on track so good it’s coming back. We are getting there!

But right now I’m tired, post holiday blues, aches from playing games in the arcade (feeling the fact that I’m 32!) and I don’t have a boyfriend. Sure I’ll feel better tomorrow!

Bebe03 I deleted him from my phone contacts, went over to WhatsApp where he then became a number, blocked him, refreshed and he was gone....forever

Having a rough night tbf, as I caught him out on a Sunday night, and he was denying it, making he feel stupid and telling me I had trust issues with him, and I know his sundays he was with her, so I keep putting myself to several sundays ago when we were still together and I was waiting for him to come home "he got called into work" when infact he was with her!

Well I did but the twat fell out of love with me! Stupid fb memes

Why do we like to torture ourselves?