Hi Guys,
I've been toying with posting in the thread (this is going to be long I'm sorry!) for a few days as I don't have the mental energy to be able to deal with a bashing in the main forum.
As you all know, me and Miss B&B got together four months ago, and have had probably the best start to a relationship imaginable. Very in love, love every second together and I was there 3/4 nights a week and helped out. Because of owning a B&B, it was me that did the 45 minute journey there and back, sometimes twice a day or to work the next day. And I don't mind, I love being there and I love her.
She's had a lot of problems due to the B&B, her and her parents have only recently acquired it and as such it's a huge culture change for them all, DP lives in it, and has felt like since moving in it wasn't her home and stifled. We've never been able to be spontaneous because of check-ins, and I adjusted accordingly and loved it, it feels like such a huge part of my life!
However, on Monday she broke down with her parents. I could see it coming a mile off...she's exhausted and mentally drained and anxious. I offered to come up and do the check ins, so she could spend time with her friends, she said no. The next day, we were meant to see each other but I said not to, and she should sort things with her folks. Things went so quiet after that, and instead of the usual back and forth messaging it stopped.
I messaged the next morning, and all hell broke loose that I wasn't there for her when she needed me. My phone was on, I just thought she was having some space to sort her issues. Since then it descended into petty arguments, and she's blamed me instead of the B&B, saying she's been telling me what I wanted to hear about spending time together rather than actually wanting to do that. Then changes her mind and says no that's not true. So my head is really really screwed up!
So as it stands I haven't seen her since Monday morning - the longest we've ever gone apart. She says she loves and misses me but doesn't know if we can get past this. She asks for time apart then messages half an hour later - today I've asked her not to message. I don't know if I'm coming or going. Last time I saw her we were so happy and to find out I'm being blamed rather than the B&B has hurt me really badly.
I think I'm going to sound like a teenager, but you guys have been great before. I just don't know if I should walk away and date someone who has zero commitments and can have dates, I feel like I've had the rug swept from under me, kinda like sunshineandflipflops with MrSAS. I'll tell you one thing, writing it all down has been very cathartic!