Dear henry
Words can’t explain how terrified I’ve been to write you this, but i feel like it can’t hurt, Can it? Well, we’ll see. I just want you to know how i completely feel. The last thing i want is to come across your mind as needy and desperate. ( But thats not the Case for a change) Its Just My heart speaking
I guess I’ve decided to write this because lately, I miss you so much it hurts. I miss looking forward to talking to you and seeing you everyday. I miss when we would just talk on the phone for hours. I miss when I would go to look at you, but you were already looking at me first. Some days I miss you so much i go through all the messages you wrote me, and it makes me smile, but then I wake up in the morning realise you’re not here anymore, and I get sad again. To hear i was your world, always made me feel special. You were not ashamed of me and you would remind me you loved me everyday.
I’ve tried to convince myself i don’t want you anymore. But I just can’t let go. I don’t want to see you move on, but I’m not doing much about it either. I know I've been pressuring you.
I could tell you how much Ive missed you for days and weeks , but I feel like it won’t make a difference.
You are too much for me, yet I can’t get enough!! I simply cannot put into words how I feel about you when I see you, hear you! I Smile so much my fat face hurts. I take in the way you move, the way you talk, whenever you are around although it may only be for brief moment, it’s enough to make my day.
These intense feelings will never go away.
Every day and night I thank god that you came into my life and I try to tell you how I feel, because what I feel for you exists inside my heart.
Removed a bit that will out me
If you decide to open up your heart to me again, you will benefit from my improved personal standards and my better self confidence and none needyness which can only serve to elevate this relationship from the emotional state in which it seems to have found itself in. Every second we’ve been apart, every word, action and thought that has ever been spoken or passed, has travelled thru the depths of my mind And it makes me a better person everyday. I guess what I’m trying to say is that, look its not a need or neccesity to have you back, but its a choice instead to want to be with you again.
And my mind and heart choose to be with you – so look there’s a difference between needing you back and choosing to want to be with you. The purpose of this message is to let you acknowledge that I’m not asking for you to take me back right now, I don’t want to be selfish and pressure you to be back with me all over again. NO i dont want that! All im trying to say and gain from this letter is for a little sign of hope that one day this mind of mine will be under control and it will be sunny again between you and me and we can grow old (older) together Cuz the way i feel about you is a really rare type of love.