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We are a bus load of Babes all battling alcohol and trying to resist, reduce and get our lives back under control. Whatever you have to say, we will have heard it before and no-one will judge you. This is a warm, friendly,supportive place with tough love when needed ( slap round the face with a wet squid called Barrie). Join us here.

Lovely to see you babyj and well done

No such thing as failure on this bus kid.
You bank your AFdays and you start again.

On the train feeling crap. Loads going on which I cant share here.

Will apply E45 to hideously itchy skin, wake up with my usual hangover and hopefully feel bad enough about the whole thing that I don't drink tomorrow

You haven't failed kid you are aware it wasn't a great idea and take that away. You did brilliantly and you start again. Paracetamol, a pint of water, you know the drill. A cool shower for the itching and tomorrow is another day

Baby great to see you. I’ve never forgotten the big welcome and kind words you gave me when I first hopped on the bus, and I’m glad to hear you’re doing ok
Swarskid you’re not a failure, you’re really not. You’ve done something amazing and brave and scary and achieved something lots of people could never in a million years imagine doing, so you are not a failure setbacks are natural, it’s gone now and tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start. Please be kind to yourself, we can be our own worst critics

lux thank you xx that means a lot. Hope your pain is settling.

Sorry to disappear- got a bit freaked out for reasons i won't go into, but as a result have been drinking like a fish for the last week. Was on nights and reverted back to the bottle of wine at 9am habit. Don't feel good for it at all. Maybe I need to be here.

I'm af tonight, and really need to stay that way this week. Tomorrow is long run day- 15 miles- which cannot be done hungover. Struggling with my back again so if I can't do it I will have to admit defeat and defer my place. Wednesday morning is my wisdom tooth extraction- again not something I want to do hungover, and i need to try and stay af for a few days after.

Great to hear from you Elba I'm sorry things haven't been good. Like you my back is buggered right now.

Good luck with the tooth and so glad you called by.

I'm floating on a cloud of codeine, no wonder people get hooked. Feel marvellous and scared I feel so good. Pain still there but don't care about it.

Must sleep now. Sweet dreams all

Hi elba sorry to hear things not too good
lux its a lovely feeling isnt it? Recently got in thr habit of taking a few before bed for good sleep but stopped that now. Theyre marvellous at killing/numbing the pain

Hello can I join please? I'm a single mum to a toddler and have a big problem with wine. I probably get through 6 or 7 bottles a week at least. I've tried going alcohol free during the week and only drink weekends but can't go more than 3 days. I'm fed up of this cycle that I'm in and want to get out of it before it's too late. I'm therefore trying to go dry for 4 weeks to see if this will break the habit. I'm only on day 2 and already struggling!

curliesue welcome, I was the same as you completely. I found the right moment and had my last glass of wine 30th December. Maybe it's your moment.

I posted on your other thread, happy to see you here. I must sleep now but look forward to catching up with you soon. Well done for taking the step into new habits

Thanks lux. Well done for going without wine for over 2 months, that's such an achievement! Thanks for replying on my other thread too. The support I'm getting is helping me tremendously as I don't feel I'm alone x

I'm also on the codeine tonight. Didn't need it, but thought it best to try it out to make sure I'm not sick on it now rather than after the dentist (never taken it before and would imagine it's not pleasant to throw up after wisdom teeth extraction!) ...waiting for it to kick in, and hoping that it might also help me sleep.

curliesue welcome!

You're far from alone CurlieSue
Hope you sleep Elba I must turn the lights off now.

Goodnight everyone.

Hello Curliesue
Elba hope you manage a good nights sleep
Lux hope you have a pain free night

Hi madein thanks for welcoming me. I've not had a drink for two days but I've had terrible insomnia. Has this happened to anyone else? Thanks.

Morning,
Yes your sleep will settle down soon CurlieSue first few days does tend to be disrupted then sleep gets better than ever, or did for me.

I went to see the Dr, he is pretty certain I have cirrosis, but wants to see an Ultra Sound scam I think to see how far advancd it is.

It's not looking good.

School ha given me the rest of the week off, but I think I will still feel this crap next week as well

book Sorry to hear that. Aside from the scan, what did the Dr think is the next step?
Did you suddenly get symptoms or were they building up over a while?

There were symptoms, lie feeling tired all the time, I just didn't associate this with Cirrosis.

It was only when I turned into a human banana alarm bells started ringing.

Book even though you suspected the cirrhosis it must have been quite a shock, do you have family or friends who can support you? Do you feel ready to tackle the booze?
I hope your GP will be supportive and guide you well through the next steps and I wish you strength.

I feel dreadful like a complete idiot I topped of my codeine with a couple of gins last night and now feel grim, I was so desperate to take the edge of the pain and sleep. Lesson learned.

My feelings towards alcohol have changed dramatically over the weeks and months and although I have had a couple of slips and wobbles I think I am nearly ready to bin it altogether. I am not going to declare myself teetotal as that feels like pressure, but quietly and without fuss I think I am ready to become a non-drinker. The way I feel today confirms it.

I'm going to ramp the self care up a notch, I have a little money put by and obviously haven't been buying wine so my diet is going to be overhauled with a few treats, seafood perhaps, expensive chocolate for sure!

Book Thinking of you. Rest up and treat yourself well.

As predicted I have a hangover meaning:
Feel like shit, physically and emotionally
Obviously did not make it to the gym
Feel there is zero chance of ever being slim again (used to be a size 8, now probably at least a 14 but can't tell because I never wear anything but PJs or leggings)

But on the plus side (ish) I realise that drinking is a bit like smoking (used to be a smoker, kicked it with the help of Allen Carr). I don't need it but I'm in the trap of believing I do. Each time I give in and drink I am feeding the monster [addiction]
So if I can learn to enjoy the feeling of being AF and treat the cravings as the voice of the monster who dies a bit more each time I don't feed him (I think the monster is a "he") I will see being AF as freedom instead of misery.

I have lots to do today and need to be the image of positivity.
Thinking of all of you Brave Babes.

Hear Hear to Self care Luxurywoman

book I'm really sorry to hear this. I guess you won't know for definite though til you've had the scan. Do you have a date for the scan?

Why do I keep missing the Bus?

I'm utterly useless to you all right now, I've got so much to sort out, but please know that I'm thinking of you all, and keeping an eye out for the Bus in the distance heading to a stop near me!!

Lots of sober squishes to you all,

Love ❤️ Mouse

Hi to all
Thinking of you book.
And everyone.
I manged my AF day yesterday and feel much better physically today. Rocket science!!
Am here and sending supportive thoughts, can't post much at mo am a but swamped.
Have a good Tuesday