My Dh died this morning and I don't know how to go on

[JuanPotatoTwo]

But I will because I have to, because I have 4 incredible dc he loved.

I'm so so sad, didn't see it coming this time. Been lots of occasions in the past when we thought we'd lose him but he fought back and pulled through. Too much for him this time. One month today we would have been married 24 years.

Being self indulgent posting but I'm trying to put on brave front for dc even though 3 of them are adult and trying to be brave for me. We all loved him so much.

Your love for each other and your DCs completely shines through the darkness of your posts.
I really hope that warmth brings you some comfort in the coming hours and beyond

Juan, don't know you but sending big love. What you've written is beautiful. I'm so so sorry for your loss.

I'm so so sorry. Xxx

So sorry to read this Juan 💐

So sorry for your loss, lots of love to you and your family x

I'm so very sorry for your loss Juan

Gosh Juan, sending love and warmth. You will all grieve together, and alone. You will all find your way through together, and alone. But you will all get through. It seems insurmountable, it seems crazy to think you can survive this. Grief makes you feel like you're going mad. I found those who had known grief the best comfort.

I also made my own rituals: candles and music. Do what you need. You have the rest of your life to accept this. Be as kind to yourself as he would have wanted

So sorry

So sorry for your loss. So lovely that you and your children were clearly so loved by him and you and you children are clearly an important solace for each other. If I have that when our time comes I will know we lived well x

I know the future seems impossible today but you clearly have what you need to find a way forward x the pain softens with time though the memories never fade x

Sorry to read of your sad news,big hugs to you and your dc x x

I am so, so sorry Juan. You must be in so much shock right now.

Oh juan I am so sorry💐💐💐💐 May he rest in peace😥😥😥

So sorry for your loss

So sorry for your loss

So sorry for your loss. I've been through similar, it's awful, just here to hand hold

Hugs to you all.

So very sorry. There really are no words.

So sorry to hear this Juan

Nothing of any eloquence to add, just that I am so sorry for your and your DCs loss

So very sorry

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Sincere condolences to you and your family

So sorry to hear this.

I'm so sorry about your husband he sounded like a lovely man

Take comfort in your wonderful children and take it day by day.

I'm so sorry others have had to go through this. Ihavenoidea that was such a lovely post, and brought even more tears to my eyes. The bit about no rewind button was so exactly how I feel. If I could just go back 48 hours and make a different decision as to what hospital to take him to, or when, would he still be here. I too have little close family apart from the dc, but lots of good friends who are keen to help. Tomorrow I'll let them, tonight I'm wallowing in grief.

One of the xmas presents I got him was a pair of shoes - he had size 15 feet! He's worn them almost every day since then but yesterday at the hospital for some reason he'd put on a pair of seldom-worn black shoes. When we got home earlier, his xmas shoes were exactly where he'd taken them off in the sitting room, and the cup of tea I made him just before the paramedics got here was still on the side. I opened the fridge to get some milk for tea, and the strawberry yoghurt only he likes jumped out at me (well, nearly). He's everywhere but nowhere.

You have all been so amazingly kind, I really do thank you. I should have posted in relationships so I could keep this thread to remind me that people are so caring.