Hi fluff (and everyone else!) Thanks for asking how I'm doing.:) Not too great dating wise but all my own fault- keep fluctuating on whether I'm ready for the OLD malarky at all... and then when I think hell yeah, give it a go, give it your all, what's to lose, I alternate between thinking 'hold out for someone you're really likely to fancy' and 'give anyone who's interested, might be a grower and isn't an obvious psychopath a chance'. Neither strategy is yielding much success, tbh.
In mode 1 I am utterly picky (with no cause seeing as I'm as flawed as the next person- and then some, some might say) and very few people get through my filters/receive a right swipe (though I am brilliant at super-liking people on tinder by mistake, annoyingly). Those rare men where I think 'mm, yeah, nowt obviously wrong with this one!' hardly ever message me/message me back if I make the first move. So they're probably out of my league or want different things than me or don't fancy me or aren't at a matching/compatible stage of life or whatever. Once or twice I've had great messaging experiences but it's unusual and one of those was with someone who liked messaging but didn't want to actually meet me. So I'm finding getting to the point where I have a date lined up with someone who I feel genuinely a bit smitten about/hopeful that there will be a spark in rl very difficult.
But eventually I give myself a talking to and say, look mate, there are not enough fish in this tiny rarefied pond you have allowed yourself to paddle in, jump into swim in the sea proper and meet someone, anyone, come on, who do you think you are being so picky anyway. And so I get some dates... but I really haven't had much fun on any of them, though none have been totally disastrous either. (And I was disappointed- I'd rather they were disastrous so at least it would be an exciting story!) They've just been dull. They all suggest going to the same places. Good places but you get this deja vu thing. So basically I attract boring men, which probably means I'm boring too. Though I very rarely feel bored with friends, family, work etc. There's that weird thing as well that they've pretty much all asked for second dates- I think because of that sod's law thing that people who aren't invested in you whatsoever seem more attractive plus I'm probably quite good at shooting the breeze, chatting and finding out about people because I have that kind of job- so I've then had to say no to seeing them again, which I don't like but they really have made me think 'ah, the single life, it's a good and wonderful thing.'
Cancelled tonight's date yesterday as felt a bit ill and thought I was coming down with something. I didn't want to pull out at the last minute. I'm relieved as it'd been arranged during a give it a go phase and I convinced myself he'd be ok because he has the same bike as a good friend of mine but he'd suggested meeting at the same place as every other man ever and... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
I'm thinking of taking a break from it all until I can summon up a bit more enthusiasm.
Gosh- had more to say on this than I realised- bet you wish you hadn't asked!
How's everyone else getting on? Anyone had a lovely Saturday night date tonight?