Feeling perky now I have has a shower and walk, how's everyone else?
Please forgive me a little indulgent ramble?
Just before Christmas my daughter was asking me for yet more 'stuff' and I told her no, it's Christmas you'll be getting presents, and I need a new mascara and knickers and basically mums are terrible for putting themselves last. She then said that she wished I was a more 'luxury woman' (love that expression) She meant less frumpy and dowdy.
Anyway, I have been thinking on this and have decided to try and embrace the idea (after talking about strategies yesterday)
So, 'luxury woman' would take care of herself right? She wouldn't martyr her needs and then console herself with a gallon of Pinot, ending up with a red flushed face and bloodshot eyes, would she? Oh no, she would read a book, enjoy a film, paint her nails, eat good food etc.
So, this morning I treated myself to that new mascara with the money saved not buying wine New years eve or day.
I might go mad and get my brows threaded later. I want to slip into clean sheets every Friday night and appreciate them not end up a sweaty sleepless mess. I want to concentrate on films and books and maybe even play board games with my daughter instead of knocking back glass after glass.
I hope I can undo some of the damage I have done to both myself and others, I want to be in control of my life, I don't want to be asked if I have grandkids cos I look so damn old, I want to be 'luxury woman'
Sorry if that all sounds a bit bonkers but I need a safe space to think aloud and be spurred on by you lovely lot.