tapas I was emotional too. For me, a lot of shame I didn't usually allow myself to feel was bubbling up. It wasn't useful, but I think going through it is better than avoiding it. Are there comforting things you can do for yourself?
finnish so glad you're here, still sober, and hanging in there. You are an inspiration.
buddha just to second what everyone else has said. You aren't responsible for your partner's choices around drugs, and he isn't responsible for yours around drink. You sound well shot of him. I know it doesn't feel like that now, and I am sorry if this sounds harsh, but your physical and mental health, your happiness and your sobriety are more important. Your child is more important. You can do this. It's probably going to be the hardest thing you've ever done. If you need to lean on your mother and friends, take time off work and totally baby yourself for a couple of weeks, then do that. It was wrong of him to put an easy social life above your health and wish not to drink.
strong and tattoos so glad you're hanging on in there and still posting. The social stuff is tricky, isn't it?
Hello and KOKO to everyone else who I have missed and not namechecked.
I am still here and still sober. Had a frustrating day - some unexpected stuff cropped up, which means I am behind at work. I like to be methodical and dealing with the unexpected has always been tricky for me. Still, I did well. Had a miserable headache all afternoon and the kids were hot and tired and grumpy and our evening was pretty chaotic. They're in bed now. I'm just about to do next day of yoga and headspace and then see if I can get another couple of hours work in before bed.