Onwards and Upwards!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good morning. Welcome to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

Hello Hush,
I can see there's been lots of celebrating and drinking on here? Sorry I haven't been around recently - seem to have been really busy. How are things going for you at the moment? I know you had started clearing the house. Have you been able to make any decisions about what next or is it still a waiting game?
This damned rain is so depressing - it's just drizzled a bit here today but apparently tomorrow will be sunny?? Fingers crossed. xx

Hello Louisa,
There seem to have been a lot of birthday celebrations lately! That the excuse anyway!
Glad you are keeping busy. Not too busy though. I hope you have had time to do things you enjoy.
I am down in the dumps today. I have had a lot of negative thoughts and I am so lonely. I am going to see a Counsellor on Monday and I am hoping that is going to help!
As you said this weather is depressing. I hope it does brighten up tomorrow.
Still a waiting game here. Did get the garden looking a little better on Thursday while it was dry.
I should be sorting stuff but cannot find the enthusiasm to do anything.
Sorry to be so glum!
I hope you have a nice evening xx

Hello Hush. How are you doing?

Hello Pisco,
I am okay. Just feel really down.
Waited in for the delivery again. Did not arrive.
Went on chat and wasn't loaded on to vehicle today.
Told would deliver Monday but won't be here in the morning. So has
to be Tuesday. What a waste of time. Two whole days so far!
Couldn't settle to do anything. Watched a film about the Kidnapping of Freddie Heineken and his driver.
I made bread and polished the granite.
How has your day been? Have you been any where?
Did you play monopoly?
I am having a Baileys with ice!
Xx

Husha, I'd be really cross about the parcel delay.

Tonight my snifter of choice is a half pint of cider and very nice it is too. But Im wondering what the Irish Mist people refer to?

I have an early start tomorrow and will be out the house at 6am in order to beat the traffic to where I have to get to. Im going to my first session of this charity organisation......www.daysforgirls.org I can't use a sewing machine very well but there's plenty of work for people who dont sew and Im looking forward to it. The chapter here is organised by my daughters friend and I thought oh I'll get involved to support the pair of them but Im now really looking forward to it. Im really just posting about it so you can perhaps see there are things out there you can do a wee bit further down the road when you're feeling better.

I hope your counselling is of benefit to you but please don't be put off it doesnt happen the same day. It can take its time to hit the spot but you have to start somewhere.

That's rubbish about your delivery. Surely they can put it on a timed delivery for you now after all this hassle? No, we've not been out today. The Monopoly went out the window, instead we watched a travel programme and did lots of wrestling.
I won! Show no mercy......
Going to watch a film now, they're arguing which one to watch.
I'm going to have a cuppa first, then I'll join you with a mouldy Sheridans xx

and again

www.daysforgirls.org

Hi notonyur.
Glad your cider is going down well.
Irish Mist is an Irish whiskey with honey liqueur.
Which makes it much smoother than whiskey.
I hope you manage to get up in the morning and get to the first session of the charity organisation. I will take a look at the link. I hope I will be able to do something useful further down the line.
I know that the Counselling won't be an instant fix but it did help me last time.
I have had one of those days when I feel I will never get over this and cannot see a way forward? Would just like to go to sleep and not wake up. I know that is awful and I know there are lots of sick people in the world and people a lot worse off than me but that is how I feel.
Xxx

Husha, your problems are as big and as real as anyone else's so please don't think you have to deny them because other people also have sadness and pain in their life. And it was my friend who taught me that. She had a wee girl who died 2 days after she gave birth to another daughter and one day she said to me - you do know its ok to say how you feel as DS's mum, its ok to say its hard etc. You do not have to hide it because of what happened to me and mine.

So it really is Ok Husha to say exactly how you feel. xxxxx

Oh and I think I might try and track down a bottle of mist!

Thank you notonyur for being so kind.
I have had a good cry.
I try to tell myself that the only person I am hurting is me as he doesn't give a jot about me or our sons only this woman and her life. I am just a thorn in his side now.
He has moved on.
I am sorry to hear about your friend and her loss. You had your son as well as your husband cheating to cope with.
The Irish mist is good. It has to be the honey liqueur as they do a whiskey too.
Enjoy tomorrow xx

Notonyur is right you know, she's a wise woman! Your problems are just as valid as anyone else's. Just don't let that nasty duo consume you. You are better than them. You have to keep telling yourself that. X

Sorry Pisco. I had to take time out for a cry.
I hope you managed to all agree on a film to watch?
The wrestling sounds like fun!
Better than Monopoly!
The delivery company are not any help I have complained to the company I ordered the dog food through. Such a waste of time!
Have you had a Sheridans yet?
xxx

Sheridans slipping down a treat at this very moment. Clinky! Xxx

Thank you again Pisco.
notonyur is a wise woman.
I will try not to ley those two consume me.
It's just that I have no self esteem or confidence left and she is such a confident accomplished woman. It just makes me feel worse.
I hope you have a good nights sleep xx

Evening Hush,
It's so hard to get over that sense of loneliness isn't it? It just feels like a hard slog. I always think Saturday nights are the worst - it's as if the rest of the world are partying (they're not) while I'm sitting at home watching television.
Hopefully tomorrow will be sunny and a more cheerful day? I'm busy in the morning and then will enjoy a nice ramble through the woods - hopefully in the sunshine as well as a bit of gardening. (or it will rain and I'll sit in front of the television all afternoon!)
Sleep well xx

We're all good at different things. Goodness knows what is behind that persona.
But actually it doesn't matter. Just concentrate on yourself. Build on what you are good at, and I know there's plenty, and then try some new things. You are as good as anyone else.

Evening Louisa,
It is so hard to get over the loneliness. It is a hard slog. I think weekends are the worst. It would be good if it stopped raining and we had some sun. It makes you feel brighter with some sunshine. I hope you get to go on your ramble and maybe do some gardening.
Sleep well xx

Thanks Pisco.
I will try to concentrate on myself.
One thing is that I wouldn't dream of going with a married man.
I have to find a way of keeping her/them out of my mind.
Good night. Sleep well xx

Sorry I have been quiet on here , been on a mini holiday and now writing an essay for a course I am on in London . I will keep reading the thread as much as I can . Xxxx

Welcome back Kirk.
Hope you enjoyed your mini holiday?

Hope the essay writing is going well?

Good night. Sleep well xx

Good morning all.
I hope that you will all have a good Sunday.
The sun is out here which always helps.☀️
Going to try and have a more positive day.
Have a good one xx

Morning all , it's sunny here but I need a big kick up the backside and imagining him and ow out in the sunshine holding hands , whilst I have no other half 😢 , 4 weeks to the big 50 , my life is surreal still , ds is here and dd and bf coming for tea , I need a big talking too girls !!!

Good afternoon Kirk I have just come back from the kiddies dancing show.
Here is your kick up the backside. DON'T do it to yourself they are not worth it!
I know that is easy to say but I know what you are going through! You are much better than them. Hopefully when the time is right you will meet someone else who will treat you well.Remember 50 is the new 40! I hope you enjoy your tea with your son, your daughter and her boyfriend.
No more of those thought!
Naughty Kirk!!
Onwards and Upwards!
xx

Sorry should say thoughts! xx

Wouldn't like to get on the wrong side of you